oh man
so today when i was walking to my first hour i passed by my seventh hour teacher who decided this was the time to press me about the issue that was at hand in accordance to the day before during her absence. The evil bitch sub from hell, as i like to call her kept bugging me to do my work even after i had asked to go to the bathroom. i sat there with my head down cyring all hour and her insensitiveness decided that she was going to be a bitch and make my life hell. stupid cunt. i felt like dying and the last thing i needed was her breathing down my neck to get to work. plus, what the fuck does she care if i do my work or not. its not like its her problem or anything.
so while i was crying not a single sole cared but im sure they all knew what was wrong and just didnt bother because they knew the answer. anywho, thats not really an excuse but yeah so that was a lovely way to start my morning.
my teacher said she didnt want to hear my excuse and that the sub wouldnt have lied. so i said ok yeah i didnt do my work but i also wasnt writing a letter im tempted to show her what i actually did write. i'll show you guys though. i know 2 of you know it. but heres to the rest of you if you care:
Do you know what its like when you're not really living it?
Do you know what it feels like to be permanently sick?
Fearing every day cuz you know you will never be ok.
I just want someone to tell me that life will be worth living
That i can one day smile, that i have someone or something to live for
I want someone to forever love me, i want to live anywhere but here
I want to forever feel the warmth of a real existance
I cant keep pretending that i can deal with it
So whats left? what if i never get better?
This sickness will forever instill its deathly kiss
I know that forever and always i will feel like this
Worlds can continue, lives are still shared
I'm clearly dying and not one person cares
They see me crying, they know i talk of dying
Yet i cant just get a hug not one bit of attention
No single hint of love. forever i will continue on
Trying my hardest to stay strong
Im so fucking sick of hurting, of crying, of feeling.
I want to never live again
Just to forever stop breathing
That would be my heaven.
Maybe then they would get it.
so while i was crying not a single sole cared but im sure they all knew what was wrong and just didnt bother because they knew the answer. anywho, thats not really an excuse but yeah so that was a lovely way to start my morning.
my teacher said she didnt want to hear my excuse and that the sub wouldnt have lied. so i said ok yeah i didnt do my work but i also wasnt writing a letter im tempted to show her what i actually did write. i'll show you guys though. i know 2 of you know it. but heres to the rest of you if you care:
Do you know what its like when you're not really living it?
Do you know what it feels like to be permanently sick?
Fearing every day cuz you know you will never be ok.
I just want someone to tell me that life will be worth living
That i can one day smile, that i have someone or something to live for
I want someone to forever love me, i want to live anywhere but here
I want to forever feel the warmth of a real existance
I cant keep pretending that i can deal with it
So whats left? what if i never get better?
This sickness will forever instill its deathly kiss
I know that forever and always i will feel like this
Worlds can continue, lives are still shared
I'm clearly dying and not one person cares
They see me crying, they know i talk of dying
Yet i cant just get a hug not one bit of attention
No single hint of love. forever i will continue on
Trying my hardest to stay strong
Im so fucking sick of hurting, of crying, of feeling.
I want to never live again
Just to forever stop breathing
That would be my heaven.
Maybe then they would get it.