Messy, Messy, Messy
Well, I did end up going out on Thursday and meeting up with Nick, though I did go with Tara and Justin so that I would have others around if necessary. Hung out and talked a little, then we went back to join the rest of my group-quite a few had amasssed- and he kinda started ignoring me, which, of course bugged the shit out of me. The end of the night though, found us sequestered away in our own booth having a heart to heart, realizing that we both still had major feelings for each other. Brace yourself, this is the BAD girlfriend part- he came home with me and when he left the next morning said he was glad we were both on the same page and were trying things again- opps, told you I was a bad girlfriend. So we've been talking and when I get back from break at the begining of January, I'm going to go down and visit him for a few days. As for the boyfriend, I've decided that I'm not breaking things off, at least not at this point in time, We're just going to take a break while I figure all this out. It's not fair to anyone, but especially Sean for me to be in a relationship and be trying to figure out who, if anyone, i want to be with. So we'll see how that all goes- it's a good thing I'm going to be laid up for awhile getting my tonsils out, cus I have a ton of thinking to do.