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Life is good. Chad said something not so nice the other day and it made me doubt myself and some decisions I've made and I really didn't like that. So I left his house in a rude kinda way but I had my reasons so I didn't feel bad about that. So then he called me and was like "you left" and I was all YEAH, I did. I told him what was wrong and he said he was comin' over and I just told him not to worry about it and to just stay at his house 'cause some of his friends from back home were in town. But he kept insisting and so did I. He finally just said we'll see. He shows up later and apologizes and all that. But I still felt really bad about myself. I began thinkin' about me n' Chad and how it was all goin' and I started doubting it. But then I dunno he called me the other day and we were talkin' same ol' same ol' and those doubts disappeared. Granted I am scared about how long we will last and all those typical relationship worries. But for now I've decided to let go of those worries and just see what happens, who knows it may even last forever. Well, that's my story. I just told Chad that he made me doubt myself and I hated that. Only I am allowed to make myself doubt myself not anyone else. Then he said something and I was like you better never do that again...EVER. Seriously, if he ever makes me doubt myself the way he did this time, I dunno if I could make it work with him. Relationships are supposed to be about support and making someone feel good about themselves and the choices they've made especially when the choices involve the both of you. I don't think that'll ever happen again though, simply cause he didn't really mean to say it it's not just something he would say in casual conversation. It came up and he said it, and that was that, and after he saw how hurt I was I think he'll be more careful, and he didn't mean what he said the way I took it. Even though that's not right, the point is that he didn't intend to hurt me, and that's what really matters. Okay time for some red vines and then workin' out.