Lotsa stuff.
There is a shitload of stuff I want to talk about. Where to start.
We're in this stupid little game. I'm mad a Louis because he hid from me the fact he had a girlfriend, so I take revenge by telling Hugo that Louis told Audrey he wanted Hugo and Val to breakup (and that wasn't a lie, he really did say that). Then Hugo tells Louis I said that and then Louis tells my sister that I hid from her the fact Tommy is bisexual (just like what the hell) to take revenge from me.
Fifth grade anyone?
And then on another subject, a good friend of mine confessed to me that he's gay last night. I really don't mind and had doubts about it for quite a while but it still startled me in the sense that I used to have feelings for him and feelings never 100% disappear so yeah. Well I'm happy that he told me. It's just I'm sad because now I know there can't be any heterosexual guys that are this nice. And also the fact he told my sister before telling me... I know they talk more than I talk with him now but.. Well you know. It's just.. me. My way of being, always jealous, especially of her.
I want to become a Goth Lolita/Lolita again. Back in 2002-2003 (and probably even the end of 2001) I had clothes, and my attitude was way less hyper back then. I had a point in being elegant and so on.. And then I had money problems and had to sell everything except for my umbrella and one blouse.
So now I am, yearning for things I have gotten rid off. Yes I did still keep an Aristocratic looks in my outings for the past few years, with the top hats, ruffle shirts and so on but.. I still miss being Loli. It's a part of my puzzle of an identity that I miss a lot.
What I miss is a job right now to make this little dream come true and then I'll be back. I miss my past. A lot.
I'm very sick right now, and I hate it. I have a party tonight and I attend Cradle of Filth's live tomorrow and I start school the day after. I'll be soooo dead. But whatever, that is okay :P I'm used to it.
Propulsion Annual Show this year will be great, if we can manage to get everything done in time (and I think we will, I mean, have we ever really failed before?). I'm happy that we get to dance more contemporary stuff. I shouldn't have stopped the salsa class but I didn't have time at all to keep going to it so yeah. Whatever.
I'll do my best ^^!
We're in this stupid little game. I'm mad a Louis because he hid from me the fact he had a girlfriend, so I take revenge by telling Hugo that Louis told Audrey he wanted Hugo and Val to breakup (and that wasn't a lie, he really did say that). Then Hugo tells Louis I said that and then Louis tells my sister that I hid from her the fact Tommy is bisexual (just like what the hell) to take revenge from me.
Fifth grade anyone?
And then on another subject, a good friend of mine confessed to me that he's gay last night. I really don't mind and had doubts about it for quite a while but it still startled me in the sense that I used to have feelings for him and feelings never 100% disappear so yeah. Well I'm happy that he told me. It's just I'm sad because now I know there can't be any heterosexual guys that are this nice. And also the fact he told my sister before telling me... I know they talk more than I talk with him now but.. Well you know. It's just.. me. My way of being, always jealous, especially of her.
I want to become a Goth Lolita/Lolita again. Back in 2002-2003 (and probably even the end of 2001) I had clothes, and my attitude was way less hyper back then. I had a point in being elegant and so on.. And then I had money problems and had to sell everything except for my umbrella and one blouse.
So now I am, yearning for things I have gotten rid off. Yes I did still keep an Aristocratic looks in my outings for the past few years, with the top hats, ruffle shirts and so on but.. I still miss being Loli. It's a part of my puzzle of an identity that I miss a lot.
What I miss is a job right now to make this little dream come true and then I'll be back. I miss my past. A lot.
I'm very sick right now, and I hate it. I have a party tonight and I attend Cradle of Filth's live tomorrow and I start school the day after. I'll be soooo dead. But whatever, that is okay :P I'm used to it.
Propulsion Annual Show this year will be great, if we can manage to get everything done in time (and I think we will, I mean, have we ever really failed before?). I'm happy that we get to dance more contemporary stuff. I shouldn't have stopped the salsa class but I didn't have time at all to keep going to it so yeah. Whatever.
I'll do my best ^^!