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I felt really sick all day and slept all afternoon until i had to go to work and then i felt all better.
Work went by pretty quickly...
I really love how he couldn't even look at me.
For a second I shook my head and thought.
FUCK YOU. All the times he has done so much shit and I always forgave.
and when I feel fucked up over it, it doesn't matter.
...and then I look at what a beautiful day it was and I couldn't really see him any because the sun was in my eyes
and I told myself.."Paulina are you serious? ...... stop being an idiot."
then he walked off, that walk I know so well...
the one that hides all his insecurities.
It's so up right and careless like he just wants to cut right through so no one will get a chance to even look with the possibily of maybe even judging.
God, I never want to be like that.
..... I watched, squinting my eyes abit and staring at the ground for a second....
I didn't feel anything, I felt tired.
Can you wear someone out of caring for you?
Because I think that is what has happened.
I physically, not to mention emotionally, just can not.
I thought... what happened... and why.
I mean I realize now it's completely irrelevent.
But after so much you have to wonder if it was ever worth anything when you can not even look at eachother.....
I shook it off because I refuse to let it stay chewing at my head, ( not my heart ) my head.
*sigh*
I think I drank alittle too much coffee..because maggie said my pupils were really big when I saw her after haha.
probably.
then we all went to the lastdrop, got hungry and drove to little ceasers, grabbed some 5 dollar pizza and ate in the car while listening to really bad music and loving it.
back to the lastdrop, stayed there alittle while longer..
thats when things got out of hand, i was so tired and we discovered the last drop looks like the titanic..
and then name last "drop" haha no? ok.
anyway, i was laughing my head off.....
that is all really..
oh yeah some really old guys were rocking out and doing kicks and stuff it was funny.
this is boring.
the sun feels really nice on my right shoulder... haha..
the left one is facing my closet.
reall?
how interesting paulina.
Work went by pretty quickly...
I really love how he couldn't even look at me.
For a second I shook my head and thought.
FUCK YOU. All the times he has done so much shit and I always forgave.
and when I feel fucked up over it, it doesn't matter.
...and then I look at what a beautiful day it was and I couldn't really see him any because the sun was in my eyes
and I told myself.."Paulina are you serious? ...... stop being an idiot."
then he walked off, that walk I know so well...
the one that hides all his insecurities.
It's so up right and careless like he just wants to cut right through so no one will get a chance to even look with the possibily of maybe even judging.
God, I never want to be like that.
..... I watched, squinting my eyes abit and staring at the ground for a second....
I didn't feel anything, I felt tired.
Can you wear someone out of caring for you?
Because I think that is what has happened.
I physically, not to mention emotionally, just can not.
I thought... what happened... and why.
I mean I realize now it's completely irrelevent.
But after so much you have to wonder if it was ever worth anything when you can not even look at eachother.....
I shook it off because I refuse to let it stay chewing at my head, ( not my heart ) my head.
*sigh*
I think I drank alittle too much coffee..because maggie said my pupils were really big when I saw her after haha.
probably.
then we all went to the lastdrop, got hungry and drove to little ceasers, grabbed some 5 dollar pizza and ate in the car while listening to really bad music and loving it.
back to the lastdrop, stayed there alittle while longer..
thats when things got out of hand, i was so tired and we discovered the last drop looks like the titanic..
and then name last "drop" haha no? ok.
anyway, i was laughing my head off.....
that is all really..
oh yeah some really old guys were rocking out and doing kicks and stuff it was funny.
this is boring.
the sun feels really nice on my right shoulder... haha..
the left one is facing my closet.
reall?
how interesting paulina.