1day of skool since hurrican
The
first day since the hurricane... 2weeks since I have seen my girl... I
came to school excited hoping to see her... watching that door like a
puppy who is waiting for there master to cum home. But nothing as soon
as I saw the ppl 4rm her bus come in and no sign of her my heart
dropped and I got a nockt 4rmd in my throat and its still there... I
knew she wasn't coming my friend came who is really close 2 me and she
asked me 2 walk 2 her locker with her I did... she goes wats wrong I
couldn't speak cuz I was going 2 cry if I did then she goes she's not
here referring to my girl I shock my head in complete silence and began
to cry she told me not to worry that its going to get better but I
couldn't help it I’m holding back tears so much and I’m hurting really
bad on the inside... I really want to cry. we walked back to the wall
as I stood there I realize that I could not look at those doors with
out a tear running down my face so I gave it my back but still I had
that knot in my throat. I miss her so much... today and everyday after
2day will be full of pain and not good in till the day I get to hold
her thatz when I might get my smile back but other then that I think
I’m going to be like this for a while... but who cares that’s beside
the point I won’t eat either so I guess I’m slowly going to commit
suicide by not feeding myself and being depressed so w.e. that wat
happens when ur in love you slowly going 2 commute suicide cuz love is
the slowest way of suicide. this is all cuz I didn't get 2 see her or
hear her I’m afraid that we will grow apart and we will brake up.
that’s y I don't like long distance that y I’m with her cuz she's right
there but her mother is making this harder then it needs to be she is
making it a long distance relationship when my girl lives right there.
Y is life so unfair?
to my girl: I love u and I need you I really don't want to lose you and I don't want to grow apart. I hate this shyt so much babe but I’ll be with you as long as I can just as long as u stay faithful to me and love me.
It's moments like this that I wish I was a guy or that I wasn't gay.... "life is a bitch and then u die" I’m waiting to die...
to my girl: I love u and I need you I really don't want to lose you and I don't want to grow apart. I hate this shyt so much babe but I’ll be with you as long as I can just as long as u stay faithful to me and love me.
It's moments like this that I wish I was a guy or that I wasn't gay.... "life is a bitch and then u die" I’m waiting to die...