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This TED talk has played well into my psychological health upswing lately.
It provides an important nudge: at the point where I consider whether or not to say something that's on my mind, lately I've just been saying it rather than just letting it stew.
Pleasantly, when I do this its generally met with comprehension and generally receives a positive response in the form of continued communication.
It's possible that the things I have to say are better lately. I feel more self-assured and so have less to say defensively. However, that self-assurance is reinforced by the positive response, and when it isn't, I don't really care any more, because, paradoxically, I've given up on society and other people. They are no longer of the same consequence that they were.
Why? Because Darmstadter Rockrimmon the Younger was passing through town the other day and he has discovered for himself a life in the wilderness with wifi internet and a bio-diesel plant that runs on vegetable oil from deep-friers. He's based in Colorado.
Something about this highly possible life as a wolf has made it much easier to be in the city. At some point I made the mistake of caring so deeply about the people in my surroundings that I forgot what has been plainly obvious to me for most of my life, which is that you got to be yourself first, with all of yourself, and the rest will follow. This is especially the case when you're awesome, which I have been forced to conclude I am after putting the hypothesis under careful scrutiny with extreme skepticism for many years. (likeatoaster has something to do with my acceptance of this bright fact at long last. She is a light.) I'm going to admit it here, now, and try not to bring it up again.
It's another night with the blues band. We've practiced twice, which is a lot for us. When we've played in the past we've blown the crowd away. I think it will be a great show. I have NOT just jinxed it.
It provides an important nudge: at the point where I consider whether or not to say something that's on my mind, lately I've just been saying it rather than just letting it stew.
Pleasantly, when I do this its generally met with comprehension and generally receives a positive response in the form of continued communication.
It's possible that the things I have to say are better lately. I feel more self-assured and so have less to say defensively. However, that self-assurance is reinforced by the positive response, and when it isn't, I don't really care any more, because, paradoxically, I've given up on society and other people. They are no longer of the same consequence that they were.
Why? Because Darmstadter Rockrimmon the Younger was passing through town the other day and he has discovered for himself a life in the wilderness with wifi internet and a bio-diesel plant that runs on vegetable oil from deep-friers. He's based in Colorado.
Something about this highly possible life as a wolf has made it much easier to be in the city. At some point I made the mistake of caring so deeply about the people in my surroundings that I forgot what has been plainly obvious to me for most of my life, which is that you got to be yourself first, with all of yourself, and the rest will follow. This is especially the case when you're awesome, which I have been forced to conclude I am after putting the hypothesis under careful scrutiny with extreme skepticism for many years. (likeatoaster has something to do with my acceptance of this bright fact at long last. She is a light.) I'm going to admit it here, now, and try not to bring it up again.
It's another night with the blues band. We've practiced twice, which is a lot for us. When we've played in the past we've blown the crowd away. I think it will be a great show. I have NOT just jinxed it.