Jan 19, 2007 18:09
blaahhh... blah blah blah... is it me? Am I incapable of making people happy? I used to be insanely cocky, but when faced with silence with another working mind, you're insecurities take over.
What's happening? so many possibilities that flash around in my mind. Do you choose to dwell on a certain thing for a certain moment, or does it flash in your mind when you experience an empirical catastrophe. If you did, could you choose not to think about it? yes it is another one of my rants that people should definitely not dwell on.
Without the reasoning and care of others, i'm sick of feeling like my stomach has been dipped in some acidic content that it can't handle, and i'm sick of the catharsis that comes from seeing my window. But you can't do this, you cannot ignore the need others have, because through reasoning you know that their lives are justified, you cannot see it, because you have not lived it. So help them you fool, even if they push you away, because if you don't you'll fail at what it means to be humane and fail at what it means to care about those you love, you'll fail at what it means to live... Brand New year, the year that the devil and god are raging inside me.
When I look around it seems though everyone is unstable, and then people that aren't, i don't care to be like them...
there's too much shit to do that i can't concentrate on, so what should i do... at least my blankets smell nice, i suppose i can lay here for a while.