something terrible...
so i said i wouldnt update this until something absolutely terrible went wrong .. well it did
me and erick broke up .. and for the first time in my life my heart is broken.. i cant believe i'm actually non stop crying for this kid, to the fucking point were i couldnt go to school cause my eyes were so swollen!! have i stopped crying? no... I've never done this before for ANY GUY, but then again, he wasnt just any guy to me .. anyways, he asked for a break.. why the sudden change of heart? you tell me.. he says its that he hasnt been single for 2 years straight but WHY COULDNT HE HAVE TOLD ME THAT BEFORE I FELL IN LOVE? i would have been perfectly fine and moved on .. but now i'm stuck, I'm stuck and i dont know what to do, should i give the only guy i've ever loved time? or should i move on, and let my broken heart heal?.. i dont know, you see if i give him time, i know he's gonna find another girl, someone who makes him 10 times happier than i ever did, although he denys it, its gonna happen.. and i cant bare that.. i cant stand to see him with another girl, same way i cant imagine myself with another guy.. he has me, he has my heart, i dont have him, not one inch of him, not anymore.. i really need advice.. i dont want to feel this way anymore, but i know i'm going to, and i have to face those dreadful questions of "so how are you and erick?" BAD.. just thinking about us not together, wow it hurts so much. but its real, its reality and i'm such a fucking girl. i really wish i could just be like pshhh fuck this kid, he lost something good. but no, i feel like i lost something good, althought 68748989678943 people are telling me he's done this to ALL his girlfriends, i guess i'm just another section of his life. i really wish he could just tell me that, THATS IT, that he doesnt like me, that it will never happen again. so that i can move on, but he has me dragging.. i dont know what to do..
help..
me and erick broke up .. and for the first time in my life my heart is broken.. i cant believe i'm actually non stop crying for this kid, to the fucking point were i couldnt go to school cause my eyes were so swollen!! have i stopped crying? no... I've never done this before for ANY GUY, but then again, he wasnt just any guy to me .. anyways, he asked for a break.. why the sudden change of heart? you tell me.. he says its that he hasnt been single for 2 years straight but WHY COULDNT HE HAVE TOLD ME THAT BEFORE I FELL IN LOVE? i would have been perfectly fine and moved on .. but now i'm stuck, I'm stuck and i dont know what to do, should i give the only guy i've ever loved time? or should i move on, and let my broken heart heal?.. i dont know, you see if i give him time, i know he's gonna find another girl, someone who makes him 10 times happier than i ever did, although he denys it, its gonna happen.. and i cant bare that.. i cant stand to see him with another girl, same way i cant imagine myself with another guy.. he has me, he has my heart, i dont have him, not one inch of him, not anymore.. i really need advice.. i dont want to feel this way anymore, but i know i'm going to, and i have to face those dreadful questions of "so how are you and erick?" BAD.. just thinking about us not together, wow it hurts so much. but its real, its reality and i'm such a fucking girl. i really wish i could just be like pshhh fuck this kid, he lost something good. but no, i feel like i lost something good, althought 68748989678943 people are telling me he's done this to ALL his girlfriends, i guess i'm just another section of his life. i really wish he could just tell me that, THATS IT, that he doesnt like me, that it will never happen again. so that i can move on, but he has me dragging.. i dont know what to do..
help..