Depressing mode and a tease of Melbourne pix
I was gonna post a blog about Melbourne trip...but am now in depressed mode due to my *ahem* period.
I felt so lonely....something i hate to feel. It's the "usual" me with lonely feeling around period. The previous record shows that I have cried too many times because i felt like i need someone. But when i did have someone, i was still depressed and still felt the loneliness. I so hate the side effect of period, why does it has to coy with our emotions? I guess i hate the fact that am lonely more after the break-up coz that is a sign that am not strong enough. A sign that shows that am about to lose to whatever it is. I know that it is no big deal but i dun wanna be the one who's craving for LOVE, who's craving for someone. I know I will survive on my own so let it be. Just because once i had a man doesnt mean that i have to have them all my life!
There goes....i guess in a way, that's kinda like me blurting out my fear and such. I hate that I still think of my ex occasionally but i know you can't automatically delete him off my mind. Am not super hero, i cannot do such thing. Am just human and I will be fine in the end. At least when i think of him isnt exactly like ooooohhhh i miss him, it's more like bitter times and some good memories two people shared. No harsh feeling....I wish him well and well, better get the fuck out of my head!
And some teaser from Melbourne trip
Me and Melbourne Cricket Ground before watching the Ashes
me and Shane "FAT ARSED" Warne, the legendary
from Melbourne Observation Deck
I *heart* Melbourne, not just the fact that it is a nice city but coz of Yo, the fat cat and Destiny *HUGS* I miss you all!
I felt so lonely....something i hate to feel. It's the "usual" me with lonely feeling around period. The previous record shows that I have cried too many times because i felt like i need someone. But when i did have someone, i was still depressed and still felt the loneliness. I so hate the side effect of period, why does it has to coy with our emotions? I guess i hate the fact that am lonely more after the break-up coz that is a sign that am not strong enough. A sign that shows that am about to lose to whatever it is. I know that it is no big deal but i dun wanna be the one who's craving for LOVE, who's craving for someone. I know I will survive on my own so let it be. Just because once i had a man doesnt mean that i have to have them all my life!
There goes....i guess in a way, that's kinda like me blurting out my fear and such. I hate that I still think of my ex occasionally but i know you can't automatically delete him off my mind. Am not super hero, i cannot do such thing. Am just human and I will be fine in the end. At least when i think of him isnt exactly like ooooohhhh i miss him, it's more like bitter times and some good memories two people shared. No harsh feeling....I wish him well and well, better get the fuck out of my head!
And some teaser from Melbourne trip
Me and Melbourne Cricket Ground before watching the Ashes
me and Shane "FAT ARSED" Warne, the legendary
from Melbourne Observation Deck
I *heart* Melbourne, not just the fact that it is a nice city but coz of Yo, the fat cat and Destiny *HUGS* I miss you all!