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[patzelion]

Last night I had one of the most emotional dreams ever. Ive woken up frightened and Ive woken up with semi-dried tears.... but this morning I woke up depressed. It permeated throughout most of the day until I drank so much coffee I couldn't help but be my gittery lively self. The second I get home though its back to me being me. Ive felt like Ive grown much stronger since this summer, but in certain ways I feel extremely more vulnerable. Incase anyone hasn't been paying attention to the news there was a school shooting in Cleveland, Ohio. Its  really odd for me to break into tears in front of people, but somehow I managed to escape attention. Ive noticed I really cant take other peoples misfortunes... it just wells up inside me and I break down. I think Im going through some weird emotional funkishness and I'm not happy with it. I guess this is what its like when everything I have built up inside my head for my life hasn't turned out how I wanted to be. Time to keep pushing forward though and hope for the best.

P.S. statement in my comments of the last entry.