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why cant i just stop thinking about clay? why is this bothering me so much? i feel like such a loser for letting it get to me this much.
babies are the cutest things in the world. i decided that today.
i wish i could just close my eyes and when i opened them i would be content and i just wouldnt care about how it hurts.
he called me on tuesday and said that he wasnt going to call me anymore since i sounded so happy on my answering machine message. what the fuck? then he said, im just calling to say hi, i guess. what the fuck? he makes me sad, his voice makes me sad. i am such a sucker. it gets me in too much trouble. i just dont know. i wish i had an off switch in my head that i could just turn off. so i wouldnt have to think about it constantly.
this music doesnt help, but its so beautiful. sometimes its easier to let the music write the words for you. sometimes its easier to tell the music what youre thinking.
babies are the cutest things in the world. i decided that today.
i wish i could just close my eyes and when i opened them i would be content and i just wouldnt care about how it hurts.
he called me on tuesday and said that he wasnt going to call me anymore since i sounded so happy on my answering machine message. what the fuck? then he said, im just calling to say hi, i guess. what the fuck? he makes me sad, his voice makes me sad. i am such a sucker. it gets me in too much trouble. i just dont know. i wish i had an off switch in my head that i could just turn off. so i wouldnt have to think about it constantly.
this music doesnt help, but its so beautiful. sometimes its easier to let the music write the words for you. sometimes its easier to tell the music what youre thinking.