long time no talk...
it's been forever since i even felt like i had the slightest thing to say in here... unfortunately i'm sick today and am bored off my rocker... so i've been depressed for absolutely no good reason lately, it's awful. i mean i have no reason to be like this school is going good, and it's almost time for thanksgiving/christmas break. i just fear i am hopelessly stuck in my eating disorder, it's not so much the actions (i dont make myself throw up or starve myself) but it's the thoughts, i feel so fat all the time, and i want with all my heart to not think this... but it won't go away... i don't want to hate looking in the mirror...