theives as thick as us
The trio mike, eric and i. So many days and countless nights spent together. All the good times we shared, the lives we had lived...together. i remain here, floating in my own sea of disbelief, thinking of what could have been...what should have been. Mikes death struck me particularly hard, but then again how could it not? 16 years i had spent with him, following and learning how to coop with the world. I learned my life from his, i took his example and made it my own, my role model. I loved him dearly, as brothers should, and we grew up side by side always there for the other no matter what the indifference. Man i need you now, more than ever. Then one day i had gone to see mike, and there was eric. I remember it like just yesterday. There they were, "d12" rapping. I dont know why they thought they could be a rap group, but it was a nice attempt surely. Eric. Just when i thought my heart couldnt break anymore, then you pass away too. Who do i confide in now? Im not good at talking to people. I spent my life in such a tight circle that i never needed to talk to others, because you two were always there. So now i sit he
re, confused, scared, hopeless, a little boy again lost in the world which i had grown to know so well...that no longer exists. I wish i knew what to do, what to tell myself, but i dont even though i should i went through this once, how did i survive? Oh thats right, it took years. Years of mental anguishs. Years in confiding in eric, now whos left. Its not to say that theres not otheres in our friendship circle that i could talk to but dare i? I cant afford to lose another best friend, or i just might lose it myself more than i already have.
Im happy you two are together now, it makes my heart ache less because you two were besties through thick and thin. I know it sounds selfish, but what about me? I love you guys, one day ill be able to pick up these broken pieces, the ones that used to be a heart, but for now i shall remain 'manic' and there will always be 'one more pill' to ease the pain. <3
re, confused, scared, hopeless, a little boy again lost in the world which i had grown to know so well...that no longer exists. I wish i knew what to do, what to tell myself, but i dont even though i should i went through this once, how did i survive? Oh thats right, it took years. Years of mental anguishs. Years in confiding in eric, now whos left. Its not to say that theres not otheres in our friendship circle that i could talk to but dare i? I cant afford to lose another best friend, or i just might lose it myself more than i already have.
Im happy you two are together now, it makes my heart ache less because you two were besties through thick and thin. I know it sounds selfish, but what about me? I love you guys, one day ill be able to pick up these broken pieces, the ones that used to be a heart, but for now i shall remain 'manic' and there will always be 'one more pill' to ease the pain. <3