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I said fuck this smile the day it walked away
I cried for a while and followed it anyway
Look where I am now. I'm stuck in a house
Follow me in, now. I've lit a flame simply to douse.
now that I'm done writing...
All I want to feel right now is
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak. I'd share with you could I only speak just how much this hurts me, just how much you hurt me.
To give an explanation if any of you don't know exactly what that AFI lyric quote means(specifically to me) I will be using the 1st person, and talking to the person this is all directed at... if that doesn't work for you, Stop fucking reading, now.
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak.
Every time you talk about that guy and every time you smile about him or tell me what a great time you're having or what a cool guy he is... I would smile to try and convince you I was happy for you... I am somewhat glad that you're happy, but it is at the cost of my own heart that it has happened.... All of this has drained me so... I go to smile for you, but I am too weak... I hope your world is still ok.
I'd share with you could I only speak: just how much this hurts me, just how much you hurt me.
I'd tell you how much this hurts, and how much I ache inside. The fact that on some level I feel like you caused this pain whether or not that is true... I would tell you exactly how much it hurt, how much it strips at my soul to see you walk away... but I can't even talk... the words drown in my thoughts... and then I see how much it frightens you to be hurting me in all of this, and any strength I had mustered to be able to tell you all of this... I gently toss aside, because I can't make you question your life no matter what you've done to me
I love you, I don't know if I'll ever be able to completely let it go... but as a good friend of mine put it...
"You won't forget it, you'll leave it behind."
I cried for a while and followed it anyway
Look where I am now. I'm stuck in a house
Follow me in, now. I've lit a flame simply to douse.
now that I'm done writing...
All I want to feel right now is
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak. I'd share with you could I only speak just how much this hurts me, just how much you hurt me.
To give an explanation if any of you don't know exactly what that AFI lyric quote means(specifically to me) I will be using the 1st person, and talking to the person this is all directed at... if that doesn't work for you, Stop fucking reading, now.
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak.
Every time you talk about that guy and every time you smile about him or tell me what a great time you're having or what a cool guy he is... I would smile to try and convince you I was happy for you... I am somewhat glad that you're happy, but it is at the cost of my own heart that it has happened.... All of this has drained me so... I go to smile for you, but I am too weak... I hope your world is still ok.
I'd share with you could I only speak: just how much this hurts me, just how much you hurt me.
I'd tell you how much this hurts, and how much I ache inside. The fact that on some level I feel like you caused this pain whether or not that is true... I would tell you exactly how much it hurt, how much it strips at my soul to see you walk away... but I can't even talk... the words drown in my thoughts... and then I see how much it frightens you to be hurting me in all of this, and any strength I had mustered to be able to tell you all of this... I gently toss aside, because I can't make you question your life no matter what you've done to me
I love you, I don't know if I'll ever be able to completely let it go... but as a good friend of mine put it...
"You won't forget it, you'll leave it behind."