Best friends
I know what its like to lose friends.
I've lost 1 to death.
I lost several to losing myself in relationships.
I've lost at least 6 to anger and betrayal...on either end.
I've lost many to the seperate paths our lives have taken.
Concentrating on those losses is easy. Your heart breaks and sometimes when you think about all those you lost, your heart breaks again, even if it's been years.
But I had almost forgotten what its like to reconnect with a friend after months of being too busy to talk. I had almost forgotten what its like to have a friend who is still there, even after I have been stupid enough to ignore that friend for a little while as I found my way through life. I had forgotten what it was like to talk on the phone for hours with a friend who always made me laugh, even when I thought I'd never laugh again. I had even almost forgotten what it was like to have a friend rescue me from losing myself in my broken heart.
I had forgotten those true people whom I could not live without. The ones who, without hesitation, would not only tell me they love me, but who would tell me I'm being stupid and need to get ahold of myself. Those friends who come to my aid when I think I'm going to fail a class. Those friends who would just hang out and talk about whatever came to mind until we realized we'd confessed secrets and dreams we had almost forgotten we had.
It's to those friends that I send my deepest apologies and my deepest love. I truly could not have made it even this far without you. My Mercer friends, my Disney friends and my GACR friends...you know who you are. You've been there through it all and for that I am forever in your debt and hope one day I can return the favors you have bestowed upon me.
I've lost 1 to death.
I lost several to losing myself in relationships.
I've lost at least 6 to anger and betrayal...on either end.
I've lost many to the seperate paths our lives have taken.
Concentrating on those losses is easy. Your heart breaks and sometimes when you think about all those you lost, your heart breaks again, even if it's been years.
But I had almost forgotten what its like to reconnect with a friend after months of being too busy to talk. I had almost forgotten what its like to have a friend who is still there, even after I have been stupid enough to ignore that friend for a little while as I found my way through life. I had forgotten what it was like to talk on the phone for hours with a friend who always made me laugh, even when I thought I'd never laugh again. I had even almost forgotten what it was like to have a friend rescue me from losing myself in my broken heart.
I had forgotten those true people whom I could not live without. The ones who, without hesitation, would not only tell me they love me, but who would tell me I'm being stupid and need to get ahold of myself. Those friends who come to my aid when I think I'm going to fail a class. Those friends who would just hang out and talk about whatever came to mind until we realized we'd confessed secrets and dreams we had almost forgotten we had.
It's to those friends that I send my deepest apologies and my deepest love. I truly could not have made it even this far without you. My Mercer friends, my Disney friends and my GACR friends...you know who you are. You've been there through it all and for that I am forever in your debt and hope one day I can return the favors you have bestowed upon me.