im the happiest person in the world, according to the lies
tear out any of the pictures of me by your side. its the worst ending now; alone. i can only hear myself underneath the sulfur scented whispers; prying out the perfect words to write down..and still youll never read this. i dont stand in disbelief anymore...but still the feelings still. and id still do anything for you. my smile and heart are muddy and theres no way to get them back. i; i cant breathe. i cant feel alive. i still feel the pain inside.
there are those knives. and they wont stop parting the skin in two. you want me dead, they want me dead. but you already killed me this time. im numb before my own face in the mirror. and everything thats in front of me, is nothing close to a cure. im sorry. i tore every tendon out of you, and let the dust in the air settle for infection. im more than you would ever feel in your lifetime. why do i have to feel so bad? its not killing you, but its killing me.
its not close to anyones dreams, and its nothing. i just wanted you to open up, and let me in this last time. i tried more than anyone could, and gave you the deepest maroon's of passion. and it was all just to have you say the truth about you. and the words didnt come out. nothing came out aloud. you just left me. you left me for the good that you promised yourself youll have...and youll never get it back. i loved you. i loved with every muscle and ache in me. i gave you the skies this last time, and you turned your back to the stars.
i opened all the back doors. i wanted you to come inside and stay. and you just left the things i meant tenderly, untouched. the black that you painted my insides with, have started their decay. you left the shower sips that i wanted to hand you...and you made the greatest mistake. and still, we all make mistakes...but im trying to tell myself that, that was your lifeline. and when you left the room from me, you let your pulse die. no last remorse, no last care, no last second stares. nothing hurt me more than being left behind, because you left me alone. alone with my wishes and dreams; broken. no strength to reach out to touch the sky, just projected lies. you ate me out, of all that i had at the time...there is nothing for you to see that you left behind. and there is nothing left for me to hide. ive bled, awoken, and died. the fume of the last carried out dream, sticks inside. not making anything but panic in my eyes.
i wont make any distant sounds. ill stay this low, and quiet. not making any false movement; to get you to reconize and relize your false intents that you only left behind....surrounded by my loneliness.
and today, there is no glow. there is nothing back up through these veins...you didnt want it. and it hasnt changed.
so let your life sink into your skin, and eat away each layer. feel the product that you gave. there will be an urgent kind of pain, and youll make another mistake. and ill still be at the place you left me.
there is no more fire. there is no life, nor a another ride for affectionate sympathy. if you want to, i want to.
im behind you..and i cant handle your game thats intact. you twist and rip through me everytime. thats always how it ends. but i still want you go. please dont go. please stay. i need you now. now go. are you going away? please stay.
please kill the rest of these thoughts, please the rest of me. break through with a new road that you want to begin.
as the next choke will leave me more left than before. youve gotten carried away. two and a half years and your still the same... playing the same game of pain. and letting the surface of my skin crawl back at me and reject myself.
call for me. let another war begin. please stay. dont go. please go. i dont need you now. please stay. i need you.
i let another cut bleed out. and feel the only real. feel the distance, the loneliness, the diserted.
kiss me, with your touch, and stain me over agian. this artificial, this way is so plastic.
let this not be the way. let us distance...let us fall out.
and i have to stop this pain. this relation that is dead, this pathetic words tinted red.
take more footsteps from the darkness, and let the past liquifiy.
bleed outside. and scab sometime.
time to walk away from you.
just remember, you left your life with me.
and you'll always be missing something this time.
youll never get it back. youll never find it out.
its not even inside. its behind.
my world stop spinning; and i cant move...i cant breathe. i cant speak.
life isnt real.
there are those knives. and they wont stop parting the skin in two. you want me dead, they want me dead. but you already killed me this time. im numb before my own face in the mirror. and everything thats in front of me, is nothing close to a cure. im sorry. i tore every tendon out of you, and let the dust in the air settle for infection. im more than you would ever feel in your lifetime. why do i have to feel so bad? its not killing you, but its killing me.
its not close to anyones dreams, and its nothing. i just wanted you to open up, and let me in this last time. i tried more than anyone could, and gave you the deepest maroon's of passion. and it was all just to have you say the truth about you. and the words didnt come out. nothing came out aloud. you just left me. you left me for the good that you promised yourself youll have...and youll never get it back. i loved you. i loved with every muscle and ache in me. i gave you the skies this last time, and you turned your back to the stars.
i opened all the back doors. i wanted you to come inside and stay. and you just left the things i meant tenderly, untouched. the black that you painted my insides with, have started their decay. you left the shower sips that i wanted to hand you...and you made the greatest mistake. and still, we all make mistakes...but im trying to tell myself that, that was your lifeline. and when you left the room from me, you let your pulse die. no last remorse, no last care, no last second stares. nothing hurt me more than being left behind, because you left me alone. alone with my wishes and dreams; broken. no strength to reach out to touch the sky, just projected lies. you ate me out, of all that i had at the time...there is nothing for you to see that you left behind. and there is nothing left for me to hide. ive bled, awoken, and died. the fume of the last carried out dream, sticks inside. not making anything but panic in my eyes.
i wont make any distant sounds. ill stay this low, and quiet. not making any false movement; to get you to reconize and relize your false intents that you only left behind....surrounded by my loneliness.
and today, there is no glow. there is nothing back up through these veins...you didnt want it. and it hasnt changed.
so let your life sink into your skin, and eat away each layer. feel the product that you gave. there will be an urgent kind of pain, and youll make another mistake. and ill still be at the place you left me.
there is no more fire. there is no life, nor a another ride for affectionate sympathy. if you want to, i want to.
im behind you..and i cant handle your game thats intact. you twist and rip through me everytime. thats always how it ends. but i still want you go. please dont go. please stay. i need you now. now go. are you going away? please stay.
please kill the rest of these thoughts, please the rest of me. break through with a new road that you want to begin.
as the next choke will leave me more left than before. youve gotten carried away. two and a half years and your still the same... playing the same game of pain. and letting the surface of my skin crawl back at me and reject myself.
call for me. let another war begin. please stay. dont go. please go. i dont need you now. please stay. i need you.
i let another cut bleed out. and feel the only real. feel the distance, the loneliness, the diserted.
kiss me, with your touch, and stain me over agian. this artificial, this way is so plastic.
let this not be the way. let us distance...let us fall out.
and i have to stop this pain. this relation that is dead, this pathetic words tinted red.
take more footsteps from the darkness, and let the past liquifiy.
bleed outside. and scab sometime.
time to walk away from you.
just remember, you left your life with me.
and you'll always be missing something this time.
youll never get it back. youll never find it out.
its not even inside. its behind.
my world stop spinning; and i cant move...i cant breathe. i cant speak.
life isnt real.