Last nights stars; are from me to you.
Cut the arteries in my neck,
And take away my only life,
I dont deserve to see the light,
Or breathe this finery called air,
Besides you know i hate life,
With me the current meltdown,
Raped and burned your virginity,
I swear your faults; are my knife,
I feel all complete hurt,
When your the only one bleeding
Kissing your dagger to my throat,
Please let me bleed away,
Picking up my heart off the floor,
Stabbing for the fluid to flow,
Drop me and just walk away,
Im not that important anymore,
It's not like im still breathing,
Listen, I'll comply here tonight,
So baby take me for granted,
And i'll give up on you,
With everything created; distroyed,
Tracing what is foresaken,
Is the final lines to exhale out,
E V E R Y T H I N G IS D E A D .
Life seems to get more unacceptable and challenging everyday. But somethings stay the same. The bleeding, the puddles of emesis, the scabbing of old wounds, and broken keys that wont open new opportunities. Thats all that i visually am in reach of on a day to day basis. The intelligence i wish i could have in a time like this, obviously and seems to never be there when i need it. I feel i need some form of artificial happiness; because my bad days wont just end. The cuts just grow deeper and the pain just gets sharper.
I wont believe you if you tell me that I'll leave my room of sorrow in the far future. Because all this agony is one of the worst pains I have ever experiences. Everything in my life has just slammed me with everything that has ever happened to me....and i swear that this difficulty im having could go one forever. I fear myself being alone, and i am lost with any cause in survival. I wish i was dreaming. I would wake myself up from sleeping and be safe in sound in my bed. And i wish there was a filter to put on my life, to sort through my own issues...but theres nothing i can do anymore. Im stuck. I dont seem to find any medication or therapist to help me go on with my life...everything is dead. I like to keep my eyes in the dark...I dont like to see the world as it is. I need to get the fuck up and get my life together...But that doesnt sound very appetizing...and to be honest i could care less about my life and where im headed. Which is pathetic and sad but i could care less. Which is again pathetic. Whatever what can you do, i dont care about where I'm going in life and i have specialists saying how they cant make me do anything, and this is so true. I dont give a shit! Theres no talking or convincing me to get my act together, we are who we are. And i dont want to go anywhere in life right now....I dont care if i'll regret it later. Again, I dont give a shit.. Everything is dead.
So fuck me. Rip me up on the inside...Burn me alive. Im in a fucked position...So I'll fuck up everyone else's day. Were all fucked up on the inside anyway! Just know I'm not sugar coated....I'm in your face and I'll tell you where to stick it in or piss off. Loose any respect you have for me...Because i have none for myself anyway. Fuck that shit. The guilt, the pain, the distilled blood in my heart....all of this clogging what good of a person i could be. Now I'm drenched in this fucken fuck...Aint that a bitch. I give the fuck up.
Assholes....back the fuck up! You have no right to say that Im an emo pussy because my life sucks more than yours does. Just because fucking christ gave you a nice car, those dashing abercrombie jeans, slick perfect cut hair and sideburns, and have all the girls and happiness in the world.....Doesnt give you bragging rights or any right at all to be a complete scumbag and complete trash. I smell a counterfeit. Bitch, Im sick of your kind too! Your so easy to figure out...Dirt bag. Im sick of you calling me insane because i can actually articulate the cancer that inside of me...Im sorry im not that fake. Im not plastic and perfect like the cookie cutter generic concrete you are. This is what my life is...have a fucking problem THUG? Then knuckle the fuck up, your in for a fucking haul. I dont care where your gang is at...I'll fight you anywhere anytime....I' WILL FUCK YOUR DAY UP....Dont fuck with the already hurt....your way over your head. Shut the fuck up...your going to bleed from your mouth...and loose your pretty shiny teeth.
Im sick of you. I've been fucked enough...and i wont let it happen a fucking again.
And take away my only life,
I dont deserve to see the light,
Or breathe this finery called air,
Besides you know i hate life,
With me the current meltdown,
Raped and burned your virginity,
I swear your faults; are my knife,
I feel all complete hurt,
When your the only one bleeding
Kissing your dagger to my throat,
Please let me bleed away,
Picking up my heart off the floor,
Stabbing for the fluid to flow,
Drop me and just walk away,
Im not that important anymore,
It's not like im still breathing,
Listen, I'll comply here tonight,
So baby take me for granted,
And i'll give up on you,
With everything created; distroyed,
Tracing what is foresaken,
Is the final lines to exhale out,
E V E R Y T H I N G IS D E A D .
Life seems to get more unacceptable and challenging everyday. But somethings stay the same. The bleeding, the puddles of emesis, the scabbing of old wounds, and broken keys that wont open new opportunities. Thats all that i visually am in reach of on a day to day basis. The intelligence i wish i could have in a time like this, obviously and seems to never be there when i need it. I feel i need some form of artificial happiness; because my bad days wont just end. The cuts just grow deeper and the pain just gets sharper.
I wont believe you if you tell me that I'll leave my room of sorrow in the far future. Because all this agony is one of the worst pains I have ever experiences. Everything in my life has just slammed me with everything that has ever happened to me....and i swear that this difficulty im having could go one forever. I fear myself being alone, and i am lost with any cause in survival. I wish i was dreaming. I would wake myself up from sleeping and be safe in sound in my bed. And i wish there was a filter to put on my life, to sort through my own issues...but theres nothing i can do anymore. Im stuck. I dont seem to find any medication or therapist to help me go on with my life...everything is dead. I like to keep my eyes in the dark...I dont like to see the world as it is. I need to get the fuck up and get my life together...But that doesnt sound very appetizing...and to be honest i could care less about my life and where im headed. Which is pathetic and sad but i could care less. Which is again pathetic. Whatever what can you do, i dont care about where I'm going in life and i have specialists saying how they cant make me do anything, and this is so true. I dont give a shit! Theres no talking or convincing me to get my act together, we are who we are. And i dont want to go anywhere in life right now....I dont care if i'll regret it later. Again, I dont give a shit.. Everything is dead.
So fuck me. Rip me up on the inside...Burn me alive. Im in a fucked position...So I'll fuck up everyone else's day. Were all fucked up on the inside anyway! Just know I'm not sugar coated....I'm in your face and I'll tell you where to stick it in or piss off. Loose any respect you have for me...Because i have none for myself anyway. Fuck that shit. The guilt, the pain, the distilled blood in my heart....all of this clogging what good of a person i could be. Now I'm drenched in this fucken fuck...Aint that a bitch. I give the fuck up.
Assholes....back the fuck up! You have no right to say that Im an emo pussy because my life sucks more than yours does. Just because fucking christ gave you a nice car, those dashing abercrombie jeans, slick perfect cut hair and sideburns, and have all the girls and happiness in the world.....Doesnt give you bragging rights or any right at all to be a complete scumbag and complete trash. I smell a counterfeit. Bitch, Im sick of your kind too! Your so easy to figure out...Dirt bag. Im sick of you calling me insane because i can actually articulate the cancer that inside of me...Im sorry im not that fake. Im not plastic and perfect like the cookie cutter generic concrete you are. This is what my life is...have a fucking problem THUG? Then knuckle the fuck up, your in for a fucking haul. I dont care where your gang is at...I'll fight you anywhere anytime....I' WILL FUCK YOUR DAY UP....Dont fuck with the already hurt....your way over your head. Shut the fuck up...your going to bleed from your mouth...and loose your pretty shiny teeth.
Im sick of you. I've been fucked enough...and i wont let it happen a fucking again.