deathly shy
Have you guys ever heard of that saying "fake it till you make it" well I didn't fake it today, I was oh mega shy didn't know what the fuck to do but stuck with a bunch of yapping white bitches who thought they were the hottest piece of ass alive. There was only 2 that I thought were hot a yoga instructor and a hula dancer. My job wasn't to be a model even though I wished I could have been one, but instead I was just a volunteer doing the bitch work, which wasn't so bad for a free job. My only problem was my people skills weren't so great, maybe because I'm not in my comfort zone, but today I was just a follower trying to get by, by being a lone wolf. Being the silent one in the pack isn't me at all, I just didn't wanna say shit if I don't even know whats going on. The interesting part was when I had to go outside into the main room and serve champagne to people, I can open a bottle by just twisting the cap of, pretty intense. Talking to rich old white people was hard? some of them are so intimidating but when their drunk their so much easier to help out. I learn how to carry a tray of appetizers to people, and I'm so proud that I didn't drop or spilled anything, that place was so small and compact, I try to be as smooth as possible. Since I was a last minute volunteer, I didn't know I had to wear black, so instead I wore my printed tights with an of the shoulder shirt with my one ear feather earing, which was a big hit to the crowd. This rich white lady love my hair a lot, gave me a card and told me to call her, which really made my day, even though all I did was tie it up and curl the layer part. If only they had designers there, but they didn't so I guess I don't mind learning how to do hair. She has her own store called "The Loft" in L.A and it was seen on Bravo which was pretty aweesssommeee I'm gonna call her soon, I do not want that bitch to forget about me! After all that serving people food and shit I got to the backstage shit. The Lauren Conrad job it was great, especially when I got to tell the models to shut up and not get in trouble. I got to pull jewlery of people, and watch them squeem like a little bitch when the jewlery was stuck in their hair. MO'fuckhaaas. Some of the white chicks weren't so bad they, they were entertaining to watch, especially when some of them fell. Today was a great learning experience, I need to learn how to talk to white people better.... or other people in general. HAHAHAH one step closer to my dream!