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I haven't posted in a while for several reasons. I have several journals that I'd like to post in, but just never seem to have the time. It's finals, and I received some of my last or next-to-last grades. Two of my classes, I've received C's and I'm unsure about my other class. I blame it on this job usurping my time.
But I feel quite powerful as of late and when I say powerful, I mean it most superheroically. I feel like I could fly at any minute or burst into amazing speeds. I feel like every cell in my body is just filled with some sort of magnificent potential energy and that it is consistently building. Maybe I could briefly describe the last few days that perhaps there is a clue as to my sudden burst of this...emotion? I watched the movie to "Celestine Prophecy" recently. I remember that day that I had the urge to watch the movie, "Hulk" for some reason beyond the simple fact that I have never seen it before that day. I went to rent it and saw that they had a movie version of Celestine Prophecy. I've read the book (and had some trouble reading it) and was terribly curious what the movie would be like. I was like 'eh.' about it for the most part, but the tenets...I think I took to heart. I've been looking at coincidences as things happening for a reason and opening my receptions more. Yesterday I was walking back from a class and suddenly had the urge to simply sit down in the grass. I took everything in of my surroundings; the sound of the people walking by and the wind blowing, the warmth of the sun, the brightness of the light and the green of the grass, the smell of the plants surrounding me. I also noticed that my perceptions opened wider and wider. I could see smaller things in the distance, like read signs far away from me, when I looked down, I could see the insects in the ground bustling along with their daily work and I felt really strongly connected all around. Since then, everything living and around me is just so much more alive and I feel as though I spent my life covered in chains and that these chains were suddenly lifted from me, as though I could do anything I wish. The feeling isn't just physical, though. It permeates my spirit and mind. Everything is open now. Although, that feeling is coupled with a sudden awareness of my body that I never had. Like I realize that my body is a physical vessel and if I truly did what I want, my body could possibly be destroyed at a molecular level.
But I feel quite powerful as of late and when I say powerful, I mean it most superheroically. I feel like I could fly at any minute or burst into amazing speeds. I feel like every cell in my body is just filled with some sort of magnificent potential energy and that it is consistently building. Maybe I could briefly describe the last few days that perhaps there is a clue as to my sudden burst of this...emotion? I watched the movie to "Celestine Prophecy" recently. I remember that day that I had the urge to watch the movie, "Hulk" for some reason beyond the simple fact that I have never seen it before that day. I went to rent it and saw that they had a movie version of Celestine Prophecy. I've read the book (and had some trouble reading it) and was terribly curious what the movie would be like. I was like 'eh.' about it for the most part, but the tenets...I think I took to heart. I've been looking at coincidences as things happening for a reason and opening my receptions more. Yesterday I was walking back from a class and suddenly had the urge to simply sit down in the grass. I took everything in of my surroundings; the sound of the people walking by and the wind blowing, the warmth of the sun, the brightness of the light and the green of the grass, the smell of the plants surrounding me. I also noticed that my perceptions opened wider and wider. I could see smaller things in the distance, like read signs far away from me, when I looked down, I could see the insects in the ground bustling along with their daily work and I felt really strongly connected all around. Since then, everything living and around me is just so much more alive and I feel as though I spent my life covered in chains and that these chains were suddenly lifted from me, as though I could do anything I wish. The feeling isn't just physical, though. It permeates my spirit and mind. Everything is open now. Although, that feeling is coupled with a sudden awareness of my body that I never had. Like I realize that my body is a physical vessel and if I truly did what I want, my body could possibly be destroyed at a molecular level.