- i'm not afraid, and i don't want your heart to break -
well yesterday, after school i went home with the lovely sarie. hah, we walked to her dad's then went to the elementary school and chilled with tanaya, jen, and mike a lil. rob walked half way there with us and i swear if he was fucked up, which im thinking he was cuz he wouldn't even look at me when i talked to him and it's just a feeling i have, im gonna freak :[. then we went back to her dads and then we were gonna go say happy birthday to jay but he left his dads already so we walked to chris hanaways and chilled there for like a half hour. then as we were walking out we saw drucker and harvey. and omg is he horrible. ([harvey i mean]) they were gonna smoke us up but we had to leave. he was talking about oxy's and heroin i said i knew all he was doin. he asked how and i said, don't u think people talk about that kinda shit. ugh he upsets me. he showed me his arms that were all bruised up and disgusting, he got skinny and pale. then we met pimpin ;) haha he followed us home.
so then her mom came around 4:30 and we went back to her house and straightened our hair, got changed and put a lil makeup on. then we were off to the mall. i got like 6 pretty rings from claires and jsut walked around. then i was getting really hot and w/e so i walked out the store and went to sit in the picture thing cuz no one was in there and then i looked over and saw levy. i just smiled at him and he came over and gave me a hug. so we sat with him and his friends for a lil then they went to go get us cigs the nice ppl they are. well they were actually really antisociable. but anyway then they left and we saw jays car at his work and walked over and he told us to come in and w/e so we did and that was that pretty much. we called her mom and she came and picked us up then took us uptown and we chilled at sal's for a lil with the preppys. hah then wes finally came around and we went with him and pat and smoked a lil. then her mom came at 10 and we went back to her house and that was it.
im home now. and really tired. im feeling blah. i just read lauras info and i don't know how to feel. everythings so fucked up. im just listening to sad music and sitting here in my own self pitty. all alone :( i don't kno what to do with myself or my feelings.
*i wish i could push the fast forward button, just to see if it's all worth it :\*
so then her mom came around 4:30 and we went back to her house and straightened our hair, got changed and put a lil makeup on. then we were off to the mall. i got like 6 pretty rings from claires and jsut walked around. then i was getting really hot and w/e so i walked out the store and went to sit in the picture thing cuz no one was in there and then i looked over and saw levy. i just smiled at him and he came over and gave me a hug. so we sat with him and his friends for a lil then they went to go get us cigs the nice ppl they are. well they were actually really antisociable. but anyway then they left and we saw jays car at his work and walked over and he told us to come in and w/e so we did and that was that pretty much. we called her mom and she came and picked us up then took us uptown and we chilled at sal's for a lil with the preppys. hah then wes finally came around and we went with him and pat and smoked a lil. then her mom came at 10 and we went back to her house and that was it.
im home now. and really tired. im feeling blah. i just read lauras info and i don't know how to feel. everythings so fucked up. im just listening to sad music and sitting here in my own self pitty. all alone :( i don't kno what to do with myself or my feelings.
*i wish i could push the fast forward button, just to see if it's all worth it :\*