Once again...I knew it all along.
I don't understand anything right now. This whole situation is crazy. Why? Thats seriously the only question. And its the one question you can't answer. I feel like a joke. And I feel so unbelievably stupid once again. You have made so many promises. Said so many things that I of course wanted to believe. But you haven't shown me that you've meant it. And especially not your actions. Like I don't even have it in me to be mad. Or sad. Not at you. Because once again, there was that feeling, that wouldn't go away. That feeling that I just knew. The whole time I knew. I didn't know specifics. But I knew in my heart something wasn't right. I gave you the opportunity. I gave you plenty of opportunities. So I hope everything is out on the table now. I mean can it get worse? I just don't know how you could do this. I thought I was something worth fighting for. I fought for us already...Why would you make me go through this again. I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel, I wish that I could hate you half as much as I hate myself.