the songs you grow to like never stick at first
so i've just been working a lot. repeating the motions day by day. its oh so repetitive. i'm used to it all by now. i've been there for so long. its not even work anymore. its just something that i do and get paid. weird. my paycheck will be amazing though. and i'll just put it towards car payment/insurance/school. and i'll try to put some into my savings. it sounds good when i say it. its really just a matter of actually doing it. my car is still having a short in it somewhere. so i think i might take it in tomorrow on my day off. cause i just hate that i am having problems with a brand new car. its just frustrating because they can't fix it when its not broke. and of course its only not broke when i want someone to look at it. but so far i do have witnesses. jaci and ed have both seen my anti-tail light in action. it really does have a mind of its own. i helped ed clean his car today. the last time that thing was cleaned was last summer when i did it. it wasn't too bad considering how long its been since its been cleaned. but it was still bad. i enjoy cleaning cars. some people do not. some people enjoy having a clean room. i do not. ha.
EY is gone tomorrow morning. I wish her the best of luck. What she is doing is something that i could only dream of doing. I hope to get to a point with myself that i can one day be as strong as that. I think being completely on your own is something that everyone should experience. Its something that would change anybody and make them so much stronger as a person. but it takes a certain type of person to be able to up and leave and follow their dreams. God how I want to be able to be that person. So bad. When i was signing her posterboard of going away messages everyone had the same things to say about her. How she is the strongest person that they know and how they admire her so much for that. She has stayed true to herself and to her beliefs and thats not something that i can say for many people. Good luck EY!! You're going to do so well. And i have so many great memories of Jaci, tara(haha), you and i. Thanks for all the laughs.
Dear Matt. 8 days. and counting. Don't be late!! or else. haha. I need to make some really good mix cds to take on the road with me. Jaci I'll need your cd collection to be of assistance. please and thank you. I still have to sell those other 2 tickets. I should probably work on that. wow. i am such a dork. I am so excited about this. its odd. almost as if i were going to see hanson. they're coming here in november. I really may drag jaci to that show. she'll do it. its something that bestfriends do for each other. its in the rule book. i saw it. read it.
i also need a hair cut. bad. its getting so long. i love it and hate it all at the same time. cause i see cute short hairstyles and i'm like awww...i want my short hair back. but then i'm like, i haven't had long hair in awhile. so i may just go with it until i just say. HEY! cut it all off. its only hair. it grows. promise.
school starts next week. cool. i'm excited. i miss my teachers. haha. such a nerd. i love them though. especially mr.brian. he is like my dream dad. if i had a dad, i would want it to be him. that probably sounded really odd, but you just wouldn't understand unless you knew how he was with me. he truly cares. and i love that about him. its weird cause when i don't do something, like i haven't done anything really school related over the summer, i feel like i've disappointed him and let him down. i'm sure i have a little, but i'll make him proud. its my goal.
Some things I may have taken for granted again and again,
well here's what was said then
Hold your head high heavy heart.
So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it’s the last you’ll ever get.
If we don’t take it, when will we make it?
I make plans to break plans,
And I’ve been planning something big.
I’ve never tried to make the best of my time,
When I thought that I had plenty of it.
Now my life is one big make it, or break it.
Hold your head high heavy heart
Save your strength for the morning after.
So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it’s the last you’ll ever get.
If we don’t take it, when will we make it?
I make plans to break plans,
And I’ve been planning something big.
EY is gone tomorrow morning. I wish her the best of luck. What she is doing is something that i could only dream of doing. I hope to get to a point with myself that i can one day be as strong as that. I think being completely on your own is something that everyone should experience. Its something that would change anybody and make them so much stronger as a person. but it takes a certain type of person to be able to up and leave and follow their dreams. God how I want to be able to be that person. So bad. When i was signing her posterboard of going away messages everyone had the same things to say about her. How she is the strongest person that they know and how they admire her so much for that. She has stayed true to herself and to her beliefs and thats not something that i can say for many people. Good luck EY!! You're going to do so well. And i have so many great memories of Jaci, tara(haha), you and i. Thanks for all the laughs.
Dear Matt. 8 days. and counting. Don't be late!! or else. haha. I need to make some really good mix cds to take on the road with me. Jaci I'll need your cd collection to be of assistance. please and thank you. I still have to sell those other 2 tickets. I should probably work on that. wow. i am such a dork. I am so excited about this. its odd. almost as if i were going to see hanson. they're coming here in november. I really may drag jaci to that show. she'll do it. its something that bestfriends do for each other. its in the rule book. i saw it. read it.
i also need a hair cut. bad. its getting so long. i love it and hate it all at the same time. cause i see cute short hairstyles and i'm like awww...i want my short hair back. but then i'm like, i haven't had long hair in awhile. so i may just go with it until i just say. HEY! cut it all off. its only hair. it grows. promise.
school starts next week. cool. i'm excited. i miss my teachers. haha. such a nerd. i love them though. especially mr.brian. he is like my dream dad. if i had a dad, i would want it to be him. that probably sounded really odd, but you just wouldn't understand unless you knew how he was with me. he truly cares. and i love that about him. its weird cause when i don't do something, like i haven't done anything really school related over the summer, i feel like i've disappointed him and let him down. i'm sure i have a little, but i'll make him proud. its my goal.
Some things I may have taken for granted again and again,
well here's what was said then
Hold your head high heavy heart.
So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it’s the last you’ll ever get.
If we don’t take it, when will we make it?
I make plans to break plans,
And I’ve been planning something big.
I’ve never tried to make the best of my time,
When I thought that I had plenty of it.
Now my life is one big make it, or break it.
Hold your head high heavy heart
Save your strength for the morning after.
So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it’s the last you’ll ever get.
If we don’t take it, when will we make it?
I make plans to break plans,
And I’ve been planning something big.