IN THE END, ONLY KINDNESS MATTERS
happiness [23 Jul 2003|04:29pm]
ChillyWilly296: hehe, im all excited and stuff
ChillyWilly296: ahhh i want to be happy
ChillyWilly296: its been so long since i have been happy alone
Fatal Pills xX: it can happen
Fatal Pills xX: youre on your way to being happy
ChillyWilly296: its been over 8 months since i have been by myself happy and content
ChillyWilly296: thats a long while of being dependant on sumone and being depressed
ChillyWilly296: i know not to depend on someone for my happiness, nor to give too much too soon
Fatal Pills xX: yeah
Fatal Pills xX: but now that you know that
Fatal Pills xX: you can make some changes
Fatal Pills xX: and try to become happy again
ChillyWilly296: i know if/once i find someone i like and begin dating her that i will give plenty of space between us so i dont become dependant
Fatal Pills xX: all people are different though, you would just have to work something out with her once you start to date again
ChillyWilly296: yea.. but with my ex... it was like "ahh i have to see you everyday"
ChillyWilly296: that gets annoying
Fatal Pills xX: yeah that probably would
ChillyWilly296: i learned a lot in this past relationship
ChillyWilly296: learn to not trust too soon... and so i wont go out with someone i cant trust... which means ill have to be friends with her or know her and then once i build up trust.. then go out with her
Fatal Pills xX: and it is probably for the better because now, you know what to do and what not to do and you can fix those little mistakes
ChillyWilly296: i learned not to give my all to someone who doesn’t give you theirs in return
ChillyWilly296: and definitely...
ChillyWilly296: the thing i learned most about being with daria....
ChillyWilly296: Do NOT make someone your priority when you are their option.
Fatal Pills xX: yeah thats true
ChillyWilly296: i mean it would be cool if Daria really did love me when she said she did.. and like for me to be able to build trust and be with her and try a relationship now that i learned so much
ChillyWilly296: but hey Daria hates me... so that wont happen
ChillyWilly296: for the best i guess, i think her hating me and putting me down makes her happy
ChillyWilly296: so as long as she's happy
ChillyWilly296: ill try my hardest to be happy too
ChillyWilly296: and though she has been just letting me suffer and hurting me and putting me down... i do still love her... enough to still want to be friends with her...
ChillyWilly296: so i guess thats good kharma on my behalf
ChillyWilly296: :-)
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called daria to wish her a early happy birthday. its tommorow
was gonna send her a sunflower and a bumble bee, that i saw on a flower site.. but i dont think she'd appreciate it. So i just left a messege saying happy early birthday instead.
I decided i will remain nice, and not be spiteful or commit revenge on people who do bad things to me :)
good kharma shall follow
just know that
IN THE END, ONLY KINDNESS MATTERS
ChillyWilly296: hehe, im all excited and stuff
ChillyWilly296: ahhh i want to be happy
ChillyWilly296: its been so long since i have been happy alone
Fatal Pills xX: it can happen
Fatal Pills xX: youre on your way to being happy
ChillyWilly296: its been over 8 months since i have been by myself happy and content
ChillyWilly296: thats a long while of being dependant on sumone and being depressed
ChillyWilly296: i know not to depend on someone for my happiness, nor to give too much too soon
Fatal Pills xX: yeah
Fatal Pills xX: but now that you know that
Fatal Pills xX: you can make some changes
Fatal Pills xX: and try to become happy again
ChillyWilly296: i know if/once i find someone i like and begin dating her that i will give plenty of space between us so i dont become dependant
Fatal Pills xX: all people are different though, you would just have to work something out with her once you start to date again
ChillyWilly296: yea.. but with my ex... it was like "ahh i have to see you everyday"
ChillyWilly296: that gets annoying
Fatal Pills xX: yeah that probably would
ChillyWilly296: i learned a lot in this past relationship
ChillyWilly296: learn to not trust too soon... and so i wont go out with someone i cant trust... which means ill have to be friends with her or know her and then once i build up trust.. then go out with her
Fatal Pills xX: and it is probably for the better because now, you know what to do and what not to do and you can fix those little mistakes
ChillyWilly296: i learned not to give my all to someone who doesn’t give you theirs in return
ChillyWilly296: and definitely...
ChillyWilly296: the thing i learned most about being with daria....
ChillyWilly296: Do NOT make someone your priority when you are their option.
Fatal Pills xX: yeah thats true
ChillyWilly296: i mean it would be cool if Daria really did love me when she said she did.. and like for me to be able to build trust and be with her and try a relationship now that i learned so much
ChillyWilly296: but hey Daria hates me... so that wont happen
ChillyWilly296: for the best i guess, i think her hating me and putting me down makes her happy
ChillyWilly296: so as long as she's happy
ChillyWilly296: ill try my hardest to be happy too
ChillyWilly296: and though she has been just letting me suffer and hurting me and putting me down... i do still love her... enough to still want to be friends with her...
ChillyWilly296: so i guess thats good kharma on my behalf
ChillyWilly296: :-)
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called daria to wish her a early happy birthday. its tommorow
was gonna send her a sunflower and a bumble bee, that i saw on a flower site.. but i dont think she'd appreciate it. So i just left a messege saying happy early birthday instead.
I decided i will remain nice, and not be spiteful or commit revenge on people who do bad things to me :)
good kharma shall follow
just know that
IN THE END, ONLY KINDNESS MATTERS