The worst feeling in the world.

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I can't say that I haven't hurt before. I can't say that it doesn't feel like I've gone through this before. That doesn't change the fact that my insides are churning, my entire head and face are throbbing, and I'm stuck here completely alone. Sure I've got a friendship, and I haven't completely lost her, but the fact that so many things are over, and there's only a slim chance that I'll have them again. Our walks in the park, laying in my basement watching episod after episode of Dawson's creek, making the same pose in nearly every picture that we take....our brigde. We can't really even call it that anymore, since we're not an us. That bridge has fallen, and we're stuck on opposite ends. It's this void that kills me. The one where all the happiness should be. But I'm just empty. I've cried all the tears I had in me. I've realized the gravity of the situation thousands of times in the past few hours, and it has yet to get any better or to come as any less of a shock. It's over. I never thought it would come to this. I always figured we would get through it somehow; take the good with the bad and make it work.

I think I'm going to go watch some Dawson's Creek. Otherwise, I might never finish watching.