May 14, 2007 16:27
So Shrek was on TV last night and I only caught the end of it, but this one part really stood out to me and shed some light on something that I've been trying to figure out for sometime now.
DONKEY: Hey, hey, hey, come back here! I'm not through with you yet!
SHREK: Well I am through with you!
DONKEY: Uh-uh. You know you was always me, me, me. Well guess what? Now it's my turn. So you just shut up and pay attention! You are mean to me. You insult me, and you don't appreciate anything that I do. You're always pushing me around, or pushing me away!
SHREK: Oh yah? Well if I treated you so bad, how come you came back?
DONKEY: Because that's what friends do! They forgive each other! Ohhhhh! You're so wrapped up in layers, onion-boy. You're afraid of your own feelings!
SHREK: Go away.
DONKEY: See? There you are, doing it again. Just like you did to Fiona. And all she ever do was like you. Maybe even love you.
Suddenly, I realized what I've been questioning: Why do people sometimes push those away that love and care about them? When you only see yourself, you can't see others. When you're afraid of your feelings, you push those away that bring those feelings out. People who truly love and care about you will always keep coming back, because they are the ones who can see through the facade. Even if each encounter is only a chisel, at least it's a step closer to tearing down that wall. It's a horrible thing to be afraid of your feelings-whether it's because of a bad past experience, fear of rejection, or whatever. If I'm upset or hurt, you'll know. If I care about you, I will not only tell you but show you. Even though my actions aren't always reciprocated, I love with all my heart and am not afraid to show it. Like Fiona, all she did was love and care for Shrek and he pushed her away because he was afraid of his feelings. But because her love was genuine, he couldn't help but escape himself.
I would rather feel love-the pain and the beauty-, passion, hurt, and compassion, than feel nothing at all.