Friends are scary, my head is scarier

[patchworkwounds]

Friend has a gig tonight which I'm going too. It's the first time I'll have seen everyone since my depressive freak out last month and it's fucking scary. They're my friends and (hopefully) they'll like to see me, but that doesn't stop my head screaming 'NOBODY WANTS YOU WHAT ARE YOU DOING WHAT IF YOU DO IT WRONG YOU'RE GOING TO SAY THE WRONG THING PEOPLE WILL THINK YOU'RE WEIRD WHY ARE YOU BOTHERING GO GO HIDE IN A BALL AND WEEEEEEPPPP' etc.

I’ll probably have a fantastic time and meet yet more batshit crazy people to add to my list of friends. But I still worry worry worry.