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Have you ever worked really hard on something only to have someone take one look at it and dismiss it just because it's *yours*. Or worked really hard on something only to have someone go "well it's alright, but all these things are so much better.".
Fuck. My happy mood of an hour ago is just... gone, just like that. I wish these things didn't get to me but they do and it fucking sucks. I miss the friends I used to have in school even though I know they're all homophobic arseholes, that's why they're not my friends anymore, but I still miss just someone being in the same room. I cried my fucking eyes out over this and it sucks, it really sucks because I was so worked up and so happy (which is so fucking rare and I wanted it to last because it never does) and fuck just, fuck. I feel like fucking screaming at something, but I can't because my fucking parents will hear and I cannot deal with that shit.
Fuck. My happy mood of an hour ago is just... gone, just like that. I wish these things didn't get to me but they do and it fucking sucks. I miss the friends I used to have in school even though I know they're all homophobic arseholes, that's why they're not my friends anymore, but I still miss just someone being in the same room. I cried my fucking eyes out over this and it sucks, it really sucks because I was so worked up and so happy (which is so fucking rare and I wanted it to last because it never does) and fuck just, fuck. I feel like fucking screaming at something, but I can't because my fucking parents will hear and I cannot deal with that shit.