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I can't do this. My mind won't switch off and I keep on remembering and realizing things. I need to leave for work soon. I will probably have to go on an empty stomach because the boy has insisted on cooking, yet he could not be bothered to come home on time. I'll probably binge on reduced cakes after work. Or go hungry and take pleasure in being hungry. I don't want to go to work, I'll have to pretend I'm fine and Luke and Sam will be there and I don't want to see them. Things are worse than I thought they were. I want to talk to someone. I want to get away from my house. I don't want to have to go back to college. I need to sort myself out but how?