What do I do?
I think I've managed to calm down. But I'm still confused and worried. Jen is one of those people that, I can't really put it into words, she's just brilliant. Clever, pretty, sarcastic, confident, honest, funny, sweet in a non-obvious way, generally just the type of person you hope to be. I like her. Alot. And for some reason she seemed to like me back.
My depression has probably ruined any chance I had with her. She can have anyone she wants. Why would she pick me? I'm trying desperatley to see myself as I really am. Deep down I know that I'm an amazing person, who would make her very happy. I hope shecan see that. Because I can't. It's like I'm constantly looking over my shoulder, being critical of everything I do. My accomplishments are just swept over but all my failures are scrutinized over and over again. Why can't I believe that I'm just as good as everyone else?
She doesn't want someone like me. No-one really does. The sooner I accept that the better.
My depression has probably ruined any chance I had with her. She can have anyone she wants. Why would she pick me? I'm trying desperatley to see myself as I really am. Deep down I know that I'm an amazing person, who would make her very happy. I hope shecan see that. Because I can't. It's like I'm constantly looking over my shoulder, being critical of everything I do. My accomplishments are just swept over but all my failures are scrutinized over and over again. Why can't I believe that I'm just as good as everyone else?
She doesn't want someone like me. No-one really does. The sooner I accept that the better.