Really whiny post, I'm sorry.
Tonight I feel like a loser because one 17 yr old girl I know has really awesome long hair that she has dyed a million different colors, and another one is a barista at a coffee shop. These are 2 things that I thought I would do but never did, and now I feel like I am too old or something. Well, at least for the hair dye. As far as the coffee shop, I can never find any hiring. These ideals which I associated with my adolescence have never been fulfilled and now I'm 22. Oops.
I'm also behind on school work (oh, and I'm taking forever to graduate). I feel like a slacker, and yet somehow I always come out with great grades. Not complaining about that part of it, but I do feel that I've slighted myself out of some actual learning in the process. I see the end of the semester approaching, I know the inevitable "end-of-semester-psychosis" is coming....working ahead would thwart it, but I know that won't happen.
My house is a disaster. Little projects never get finished, clutter is everywhere, and there is not enough furniture or storage (it seems) no matter how much there is. I don't know where to start.
I don't know where to start on any of it. There's so much to do, but I'm bored, home by myself, really the problem is lack of motivation. I just don't want to do anything at all. Except sleep. I'm pretty sleepy. I get tired around 9pm now, after coming back from Belgium, but I still sleep till 8 or 9am most days.
Again, sorry for being a whiny dumbass.
I'm gonna go try to clean something now. My mom is coming tomorrow so I definitely need to get things in order.
Goodnight.
I'm also behind on school work (oh, and I'm taking forever to graduate). I feel like a slacker, and yet somehow I always come out with great grades. Not complaining about that part of it, but I do feel that I've slighted myself out of some actual learning in the process. I see the end of the semester approaching, I know the inevitable "end-of-semester-psychosis" is coming....working ahead would thwart it, but I know that won't happen.
My house is a disaster. Little projects never get finished, clutter is everywhere, and there is not enough furniture or storage (it seems) no matter how much there is. I don't know where to start.
I don't know where to start on any of it. There's so much to do, but I'm bored, home by myself, really the problem is lack of motivation. I just don't want to do anything at all. Except sleep. I'm pretty sleepy. I get tired around 9pm now, after coming back from Belgium, but I still sleep till 8 or 9am most days.
Again, sorry for being a whiny dumbass.
I'm gonna go try to clean something now. My mom is coming tomorrow so I definitely need to get things in order.
Goodnight.