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so they fixed my horn, cleaned it, completely remodeled it and pretty much perfected the thing, and it was nice and i was having a good time and mom and i played duets and everything was really fun. then an hour later, the valve starts sticking again, just like before. it's unplayable. and i'm pissed off. it's hopeless. there's no way i'll sleep tonight so i'd might as well get on that chemistry. i need to get THAT out of the way so that i can start OTHER work! YAY!
all i'm able to talk about anymore is school/music/etc. i don't have a social life. it's shot. if i actually have time to do anything fun, the only thing on my mind is what i need to be doing work-wise. and it looks like it will never end. this spring break will consist of plenty of work, as will the summer, as will all of next year. and then, college, for yet another 4 years of work. it will never stop. i've lost what life i had, and that's really sad because that's not what i want at all.
and the whole people being mean to me thing isn't helping. i know i haven't exactly been gandhi lately, for which i blame stress, but the bad being is just making me feel bad.
all i'm able to talk about anymore is school/music/etc. i don't have a social life. it's shot. if i actually have time to do anything fun, the only thing on my mind is what i need to be doing work-wise. and it looks like it will never end. this spring break will consist of plenty of work, as will the summer, as will all of next year. and then, college, for yet another 4 years of work. it will never stop. i've lost what life i had, and that's really sad because that's not what i want at all.
and the whole people being mean to me thing isn't helping. i know i haven't exactly been gandhi lately, for which i blame stress, but the bad being is just making me feel bad.