I'm going insane.
I really think i am. I think about really weird shit, all the time. Constantly. About philosophy, and the human mind, and our social structure and culture, and so many things just seem like they're wrong. I find myself disagreeing with things that have been considered fact for thousand's of years with simple reason - but am i right or off my fucking rocker? Theres a couple things i simply cannot handle anymore, and I don't know how I'm gonna solve them, because i have responsibilities due to college. I don't know what I am going to do. I just don't. I have never been so lost in my whole life. It's not even that I'm depressed, I am, a little, but only about ONE thing, though it is a big thing. A big part of it though, is just that i can't just sit here, i feel like theres something big i should be doing that im not, and i don't know what the fuck im supposed to do. And the worst part is that i cannot talk to a single soul about this stuff. Not even the people I'm supposed to tell everything... well, i could talk to cesar about it. maybe i will. just... eh what the fuck ever.