Jan 23, 2006 10:20
these kids in annandale, even the ones i used to know, have no clue WHO they're talking to. Not in the sense of "do you know who i am!?!?" but they just don't know me anymore. i am such a different person from who i was then, so much more confident. though cocaine destroyed me, i was reborn, as a whole new Tom. it's still happening today. but regardless, "bob" is gonna get a firsthand lesson in my new attitude when i grind his face into the dirt and skull fuck him with a 12 inch dildo. made of hedgehog quills. you people should really watch what you say, sometimes it has bad effects. becky is the one girl i never stopped loving, and the one i never will. it sucks, to be honest, cause shes off in college and as her best friend, i am there to listen whenever she has to talk to me - even if it's about other guys. but i handle it, just like i handle living in a shithole, friends i can't trust, thieving roomates, the destroyed relationships with my parents, not eating everyday. im poor now, and its hard. im not used to it. im losing weight, getting stressed out. im always on edge. i get no sleep. oh well. i'll get over it. i aint goin to therapy. lol jillian you told me i put you in therapy that is SUCH A JOKE, you stupid little girl. i don't know what was wrong with me when i decided to date you. i would have been so much better off without you. tell you what, true, i've become an angrier person because of all this. but see, theres part of me that none of you ever knew. things i've never told anyone (with two exceptions, being cesar and becky) parts of me, the important parts, of the OLD me, i was able to salvage while rebuilding my personality. none of you knew that part of me then, nor do you know it now. judge me not by my past times, (reafer) but by my accomplishments. making it on my own, even if it is rough. its freedom. absolute. not from restrictions, but from bitching and bitching and bitching. eh. gotta go, class is over.