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i must remind myself at this point in time that even though sometimes i'd like to believe that certain things in life don't happen due to "the timing" being off, the truth really is that in life, the timing is always perfect and certain things don't happen for reasons which are probably really good reasons.
dennis is a good reason.
also, i must express at this point in time that sometimes i get annoyed and embarrassed with myself for being observant and being aware of what is going on around me instead of being so wrapped up in an artificial and meaningless void that i have no concept of others' existances. these thoughts are manifested from numerous experiences where i am aware of a person's existance, and when i attempt to acknowledge that person's existance outside of the plane of existance where they normally exist, i get sketchy feedback that implies that they have no idea who i am because god forbid i be so important where they actually take notice of me.
basically, in order to clarify, i went to college with two girls, one of whom was there the same four years i was and graduated in my class, and the other was there for three years i was there and was a year behind me. and we're talking mcla here, where a total of like, 30 people go. both these girls work at my new job, and when i attempted to be friendly and ACKNOWLEGE THEIR EXISTANCE, i got "sketchy feedback" that implied they had no idea who i was or why i knew who they were.
it's not like this is putting a damper on my life, but it imbalanced me and it's happened before in my life, and i just feel like maybe i should just stop being a natural sociology major and start putting my head down and ignoring everything.
i guess that's all i have to say right now. i'm glad it's all off my chest.
dennis is a good reason.
also, i must express at this point in time that sometimes i get annoyed and embarrassed with myself for being observant and being aware of what is going on around me instead of being so wrapped up in an artificial and meaningless void that i have no concept of others' existances. these thoughts are manifested from numerous experiences where i am aware of a person's existance, and when i attempt to acknowledge that person's existance outside of the plane of existance where they normally exist, i get sketchy feedback that implies that they have no idea who i am because god forbid i be so important where they actually take notice of me.
basically, in order to clarify, i went to college with two girls, one of whom was there the same four years i was and graduated in my class, and the other was there for three years i was there and was a year behind me. and we're talking mcla here, where a total of like, 30 people go. both these girls work at my new job, and when i attempted to be friendly and ACKNOWLEGE THEIR EXISTANCE, i got "sketchy feedback" that implied they had no idea who i was or why i knew who they were.
it's not like this is putting a damper on my life, but it imbalanced me and it's happened before in my life, and i just feel like maybe i should just stop being a natural sociology major and start putting my head down and ignoring everything.
i guess that's all i have to say right now. i'm glad it's all off my chest.