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I've finally started to relieze who my friends are.
I actually only have a few real friends.
You know.. the ones who actually try and talk to me.
Or try and hangout with me.
Im sick of being let down by the people I care about.
Im pretty much done putting out the effort to keep my friendships going, seeing how knowone else seems to care all that much. So the way I see it is, why should I care if you don't? Everyone is to involved with there lives and problems to reach out and try to keep a good friend. So I say fuck it.
I've got a boyfriend who I love,
an adorable doggy who I love a lot.
and it feels like thats pretty much it these days.
Maybe I should be happy? Hard to be when all your old friends don't give you the time of day anymore.
I've always been second best.
Never been good enough maybe?
I just don't get it.
I try hard to keep in touch and let my friends know I miss them and I get shit back from anyone.
If I want to talk to anyone I have to make the effort and maybe..just maybe they will actually respond. Maybe I've just been mistaken the whole time, maybe I was never as close to some as I thought. I just don't know. But Im sick of how people make me feel.
Im done trying.
Because I seem to get let down.
I actually only have a few real friends.
You know.. the ones who actually try and talk to me.
Or try and hangout with me.
Im sick of being let down by the people I care about.
Im pretty much done putting out the effort to keep my friendships going, seeing how knowone else seems to care all that much. So the way I see it is, why should I care if you don't? Everyone is to involved with there lives and problems to reach out and try to keep a good friend. So I say fuck it.
I've got a boyfriend who I love,
an adorable doggy who I love a lot.
and it feels like thats pretty much it these days.
Maybe I should be happy? Hard to be when all your old friends don't give you the time of day anymore.
I've always been second best.
Never been good enough maybe?
I just don't get it.
I try hard to keep in touch and let my friends know I miss them and I get shit back from anyone.
If I want to talk to anyone I have to make the effort and maybe..just maybe they will actually respond. Maybe I've just been mistaken the whole time, maybe I was never as close to some as I thought. I just don't know. But Im sick of how people make me feel.
Im done trying.
Because I seem to get let down.