2020? So I'm dead around 50 again? That gives me 5 years to date 20something French guys *g*
dude. im so CLOSE to my LIFE. really. i can feel it. i can dream it. i DO dream it. the next one? is gonna be so much better...and you know what? family is NOT gonna be involved in it!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL. I remember. Only child to rich parents and you're male and GAY.
Me? What I wrote in the entry wasn't any kind of epiphany, I've had this buzzing around since my teens. Why couldn't I have been someone famous, like everyone else who's thought they were Cleopatra or Elizabeth the first? At least then I could have just gone to a doctor and gotten medicated for delusions.
I'm not waiting until next time around. I'm sick of next time rounds. The sooner I get with the program, the sooner this is all over. I've already promised myself that this time when I die, I'm staying dead for at least a century.
I think next time round I'd like to fly planes, or whatever we have by then. That, or rack up the karma points and be born in some third world country where I won't have any choice when it comes to learning about humility and suffering.
What I fear most is becoming some perfect soul who 'forgets self' and ends up being absorbed as just another worshiping automaton. Hense the not being perfected any time soon. Maybe I could be gay too and you could be my sugar daddy boyfriend *bg* I'll introduce you to the 'mile high' club ;P
ugh. french guys???? okay well...as long as youre gonna be old when you do. they do love the older women! *G*
LOL. I remember. Only child to rich parents and you're male and GAY. oh, HELL yeah!
... Why couldn't I have been someone famous, like everyone else who's thought they were Cleopatra or Elizabeth the first?
YES! ive always felt i was just some unhappy *kid* for like, EVER. no wonderful past lives as some native queen...just young and helpless and...yeah. still. i think im finally growing up to a better life, dammit!
I'm not waiting until next time around. I'm sick of next time rounds. The sooner I get with the program, the sooner this is all over. I've already promised myself that this time when I die, I'm staying dead for at least a century.
lol..hell YEAH! do stuff THIS time and not worry about whats next, huh? yeah. i just want to stay dead long enough to NOT REMEMBER ANYTHING FROM BEFORE! *g*
What I fear most is becoming some perfect soul who 'forgets self' and ends up being absorbed as just another worshiping automaton. Hense the not being perfected any time soon. Maybe I could be gay too and you could be my sugar daddy boyfriend *bg* I'll introduce you to the 'mile high' club ;P
ha! you WISH! ill be too happy with myself to want to be anyones 'sugar daddy boyfriend!' *G* and i wont have to worry about being some worshiping automaton...the better i feel about things and myself the less i want/need worship/religion. i feel pretty guilt free these days and good...but i still wake up reciting the rosary, knees aching and scared sometimes...im pretty sure thats a flash back!
my next life? will be orginized religion free, too! completely! so much so, i wont even miss it!
dude. im so CLOSE to my LIFE. really. i can feel it. i can dream it. i DO dream it. the next one? is gonna be so much better...and you know what? family is NOT gonna be involved in it!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL. I remember. Only child to rich parents and you're male and GAY.
Me? What I wrote in the entry wasn't any kind of epiphany, I've had this buzzing around since my teens. Why couldn't I have been someone famous, like everyone else who's thought they were Cleopatra or Elizabeth the first? At least then I could have just gone to a doctor and gotten medicated for delusions.
I'm not waiting until next time around. I'm sick of next time rounds. The sooner I get with the program, the sooner this is all over. I've already promised myself that this time when I die, I'm staying dead for at least a century.
I think next time round I'd like to fly planes, or whatever we have by then. That, or rack up the karma points and be born in some third world country where I won't have any choice when it comes to learning about humility and suffering.
What I fear most is becoming some perfect soul who 'forgets self' and ends up being absorbed as just another worshiping automaton. Hense the not being perfected any time soon. Maybe I could be gay too and you could be my sugar daddy boyfriend *bg* I'll introduce you to the 'mile high' club ;P
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ugh. french guys???? okay well...as long as youre gonna be old when you do. they do love the older women! *G*
LOL. I remember. Only child to rich parents and you're male and GAY.
oh, HELL yeah!
... Why couldn't I have been someone famous, like everyone else who's thought they were Cleopatra or Elizabeth the first?
YES! ive always felt i was just some unhappy *kid* for like, EVER. no wonderful past lives as some native queen...just young and helpless and...yeah. still. i think im finally growing up to a better life, dammit!
I'm not waiting until next time around. I'm sick of next time rounds. The sooner I get with the program, the sooner this is all over. I've already promised myself that this time when I die, I'm staying dead for at least a century.
lol..hell YEAH! do stuff THIS time and not worry about whats next, huh? yeah. i just want to stay dead long enough to NOT REMEMBER ANYTHING FROM BEFORE! *g*
What I fear most is becoming some perfect soul who 'forgets self' and ends up being absorbed as just another worshiping automaton. Hense the not being perfected any time soon. Maybe I could be gay too and you could be my sugar daddy boyfriend *bg* I'll introduce you to the 'mile high' club ;P
ha! you WISH! ill be too happy with myself to want to be anyones 'sugar daddy boyfriend!' *G* and i wont have to worry about being some worshiping automaton...the better i feel about things and myself the less i want/need worship/religion. i feel pretty guilt free these days and good...but i still wake up reciting the rosary, knees aching and scared sometimes...im pretty sure thats a flash back!
my next life? will be orginized religion free, too! completely! so much so, i wont even miss it!
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