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[pastandpending]

came home after a short sabbatical in tennesee was spose to be on the road..christmas was not awe inspiring. i found two gi goe battle packs i've been waiting for. was not able to find a place to get new comic books. a barn. was going to attempt outward social behaviour at some lounge type club thing called unity coffee (pretty good for morristown tennessee) granpa either in denial of his prostate cancer and quite possible last christmas ever has no kind words for my presence. and refers to greg as the king of the roost. (whenever he comes home) it dosen't take much to funnel a shit storm of drama. and these people think they have a clue. maybe when people were getting beaten and thrown out of windows and shit. but that hasn't happened in a very long time. i guess family is really there to control ones actions and to annoy them by telling them it's too late to go outside for a cigarette. or that those comic books will have to wait till tomarrow to be sorted. (it's 11:00) so retreat to your bedroom. or watch the evening news and die. overtook suboxone. had a nervous need for it like it was the only thing that held me in line. soon as i leave the state my endurance and will makes a mirraculous second coming and i'm back to quarters of suboxone.

not back. arriving at.

anyway greg almsot broken my nose three days before christmas is a memory. he had the scar from where dana nailed his forehead long after my marks faded. dana ia mad because i am so quick to forgive abusive people. i think people are to entitled to their feelings.
i think that feeling them is enouph. backing them up is murder.

mk vs dc universe i beat the boss double flawless. i deserve a medal.