Is UMass my nemesis!?
Okay, so at home over summer and winter break I could not ask for anything more. My friends from home are amazing, my parents are liberal party animals, I'm playing bass guitar, I have met a lot of good looking ladies, and I wake up each morning to phone calls asking what I want to do today.
At UMass, times are good, but it seems people are lazier here and spoiled by the whole dorm room epic where you only have to walk a flight of stairs or down the hall to see someone. I feel like I am being ignored some times and that I am being obsessive by calling people all the time to see what is going on. Not to mention, I don't really meet a lot of girls here. I don't know why I do well outside of UMass. It is as if I was just never meant to really fit in here. I constantly change the people I hang out with on a regular basis because shit always happens or I just get dreadfully bored, or people are too fake around me.
I wonder why people always say I'm funny and great to be around, yet no one ever seems to really care to reach me. Is it a lie? I'm confused... perhaps I am diving too far into the "no one really likes me" idea, but I can't help but think it when barely anyone ever cares what I'm doing for the night.
I am certainly not going to find another girlfriend at college. It would probably be best to find someone while I am working that is at the same stage in life. There is too much of a mix here or something. It is extremely hard for me right now to pinpoint it, but I think age difference, work load, and etc are a big factor. Who knows, but it is terribly frustrating. I lost everything I had here: my girlfriend of nearly three years became such a different person she ended the relationship because we never wanted to do anything together, my paintball club got shafted by the school's terrible activity maintenance, and I lost my life to so much school work it is driving me insane.
So, even after such a phenomenal weekend and new friendships, I have to say the previous three years sucked. This coming year looks bright as my good friend Gene has found some very nice people in Southwest... of all the places... I usually never liked the people I met there, but these people are different. I'm glad he doesn't mind me fusing into the crowd because I understand it gets annoying when one person constantly wants to hang out. I will still keep in touch with other friends, but as far as I am concerned if I don't get called or messaged at least once in awhile then why the fuck are we friends? I barely know this one girl Caitlin and she made me this ridiculously detailed valentine's card and stuff like that. I can't believe how meaningful stuff like that is, but kudos to anyone and everyone who does stuff like that.
Ah yes, and on a side note. My roommates Cait and Jere tried to say "No more parties" to me after this last one. I straight told them they fucked up by asking me to live there after repeatedly asking about big parties and Jere knowing I am a party animal. They submitted, but we can't have such a large number of people next time around. I even kind of agreed it was a bit much at one point. There must have been like 80 people here...
So enough back and forth complaining / praising / whatever. I'm done trying to reach out to people who don't contact me at least a little. I met a group of people who don't know me that well and do so.
At UMass, times are good, but it seems people are lazier here and spoiled by the whole dorm room epic where you only have to walk a flight of stairs or down the hall to see someone. I feel like I am being ignored some times and that I am being obsessive by calling people all the time to see what is going on. Not to mention, I don't really meet a lot of girls here. I don't know why I do well outside of UMass. It is as if I was just never meant to really fit in here. I constantly change the people I hang out with on a regular basis because shit always happens or I just get dreadfully bored, or people are too fake around me.
I wonder why people always say I'm funny and great to be around, yet no one ever seems to really care to reach me. Is it a lie? I'm confused... perhaps I am diving too far into the "no one really likes me" idea, but I can't help but think it when barely anyone ever cares what I'm doing for the night.
I am certainly not going to find another girlfriend at college. It would probably be best to find someone while I am working that is at the same stage in life. There is too much of a mix here or something. It is extremely hard for me right now to pinpoint it, but I think age difference, work load, and etc are a big factor. Who knows, but it is terribly frustrating. I lost everything I had here: my girlfriend of nearly three years became such a different person she ended the relationship because we never wanted to do anything together, my paintball club got shafted by the school's terrible activity maintenance, and I lost my life to so much school work it is driving me insane.
So, even after such a phenomenal weekend and new friendships, I have to say the previous three years sucked. This coming year looks bright as my good friend Gene has found some very nice people in Southwest... of all the places... I usually never liked the people I met there, but these people are different. I'm glad he doesn't mind me fusing into the crowd because I understand it gets annoying when one person constantly wants to hang out. I will still keep in touch with other friends, but as far as I am concerned if I don't get called or messaged at least once in awhile then why the fuck are we friends? I barely know this one girl Caitlin and she made me this ridiculously detailed valentine's card and stuff like that. I can't believe how meaningful stuff like that is, but kudos to anyone and everyone who does stuff like that.
Ah yes, and on a side note. My roommates Cait and Jere tried to say "No more parties" to me after this last one. I straight told them they fucked up by asking me to live there after repeatedly asking about big parties and Jere knowing I am a party animal. They submitted, but we can't have such a large number of people next time around. I even kind of agreed it was a bit much at one point. There must have been like 80 people here...
So enough back and forth complaining / praising / whatever. I'm done trying to reach out to people who don't contact me at least a little. I met a group of people who don't know me that well and do so.