yayyyyy
so dan agreed to be my personal trainer. yaayyy. i start tomarrow. which is good because today i went like all out. all my buddies were workin tonight (my johanna and jacopo) so duh, i went in and was totalllly feeling some strawberry shortcake and creme broulee. and FABIO (the gorgeous italian chef who speaks like 24% english) was in visiting as well, and we totally had the funnest conversation despite the fact that he didnt understand like anything i was saying. but still this is what has been established from the entire experience:
a)i'm in love.
b) we're goin to LA!
c) the real reason we both came in was to see each other
d) i'm in love
e) he doesnt have a car and sleeps a lot because he's still new in town and therefore doesnt have too much of a social life.
and
f) me and johanna are sure to change that.
on top of it all my lover-ly hannah came in and enjoyed the desserts with me FOR FREE! it's crazy how over the summer i wanted to quit this job soooo much, and now i just can't stay away from the place.
i'm also quitting abercrombie. retail is dumb. don't do it.
last but not least. i shouldn't even make this indirect statement but i will. i'm not cutting off all forms of association over him not calling me back a couple of days ago. please. I'm choosing to dislike him and stay away from him bc he insists on acting like he's better than me and treating me like i'm not even good enough to be his friend. i don't need that. i also don't need people that are going to refer to me as a "douche" and "fucking stupid" to my best friend. get some maturity, get some class. I'm not being a hardass, i'm just trying to finally stick with something I've been meaning to do for quite sometime now. if i want to move away from being as extremely depressed as i have been the last few months, I have to just forget you all together. i'm not sorry. you're an ass. and you have never cared about my feelings. you say you are perfectly fine with this, good. stop defending yourself then. you've made me hurt so much, i have no kind words left. and with that said, i close this chapter in my life and move on to the next.
i know nobody reads this, but for whoever does, i genuinely want to be happy again guys. working at cafe fiore has brought me a lot of smiles lately, but there's still so many other things that i need to fix. i'm tired of sleeping all the time. and being moody, and not caring about my appearance for the most part. i'm single and i want to be ok with that for awhile. you have to be satisfied with yourself before you can take satisfaction in anything else. immmmma do it. hahaha this is like an lj post written on the set of Oprah. worrrd. haha
night errrbody
a)i'm in love.
b) we're goin to LA!
c) the real reason we both came in was to see each other
d) i'm in love
e) he doesnt have a car and sleeps a lot because he's still new in town and therefore doesnt have too much of a social life.
and
f) me and johanna are sure to change that.
on top of it all my lover-ly hannah came in and enjoyed the desserts with me FOR FREE! it's crazy how over the summer i wanted to quit this job soooo much, and now i just can't stay away from the place.
i'm also quitting abercrombie. retail is dumb. don't do it.
last but not least. i shouldn't even make this indirect statement but i will. i'm not cutting off all forms of association over him not calling me back a couple of days ago. please. I'm choosing to dislike him and stay away from him bc he insists on acting like he's better than me and treating me like i'm not even good enough to be his friend. i don't need that. i also don't need people that are going to refer to me as a "douche" and "fucking stupid" to my best friend. get some maturity, get some class. I'm not being a hardass, i'm just trying to finally stick with something I've been meaning to do for quite sometime now. if i want to move away from being as extremely depressed as i have been the last few months, I have to just forget you all together. i'm not sorry. you're an ass. and you have never cared about my feelings. you say you are perfectly fine with this, good. stop defending yourself then. you've made me hurt so much, i have no kind words left. and with that said, i close this chapter in my life and move on to the next.
i know nobody reads this, but for whoever does, i genuinely want to be happy again guys. working at cafe fiore has brought me a lot of smiles lately, but there's still so many other things that i need to fix. i'm tired of sleeping all the time. and being moody, and not caring about my appearance for the most part. i'm single and i want to be ok with that for awhile. you have to be satisfied with yourself before you can take satisfaction in anything else. immmmma do it. hahaha this is like an lj post written on the set of Oprah. worrrd. haha
night errrbody