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my day has been long and uneventful. i'm going to say the highlight of the day was driving around with karina listening to the smiths and smoking cigarettes in the cold. i love when it's cold and not rainy.
i got an e-mail from lucas. he was saying sorry for a lot of things. things he probably can't help. things that sort of depressed me. he was my best friend. we could sit and talk for hours smoking cigarettes. and now he hates me and it fucking kills me. because even if we weren't boyfriend and girlfriend, i still wanted to be friends. maybe not soon, but maybe one day right? we'll see each other at h.e.b. or something. missing him depresses me so i just try not to think about it. i'll just work and smoke and watch t.v. those are things i am good at anyway.
short list of things i want to be better at:
1. driving
2. being a happier drunk
3. playing guitar
4. saving money
5. not caring
6. being more motivated to go back to school
i got an e-mail from lucas. he was saying sorry for a lot of things. things he probably can't help. things that sort of depressed me. he was my best friend. we could sit and talk for hours smoking cigarettes. and now he hates me and it fucking kills me. because even if we weren't boyfriend and girlfriend, i still wanted to be friends. maybe not soon, but maybe one day right? we'll see each other at h.e.b. or something. missing him depresses me so i just try not to think about it. i'll just work and smoke and watch t.v. those are things i am good at anyway.
short list of things i want to be better at:
1. driving
2. being a happier drunk
3. playing guitar
4. saving money
5. not caring
6. being more motivated to go back to school