im not dead, im just not alive

[passiveeuphoria]

i live... if you could call it that. more like i exist. with nothing extraordinary. no spark. nothing you could call life. no moments of bliss. no christmas cheer. no jolly. no spirit. alive, but not living life.

i have not felt alive in while. not since you.

i didnt mean to say that to upset you. im just reminicing about the past. i read your journal... back to august. miss you. glad youre well. ps i read the whole thing, but i dont think it was addressed to me.

is it florida, or is it me?