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so I guess I don't really live here on livejournal anymore. sitting down and writing an entry used to be part of my every day life, but now it's just so draining to actually think of something to say. I've started to hide my thoughts and ignore my feelings, which is both good and bad. however, this is not an entry made for sadness, for things are starting to be okay. I'm starting to save up money, and by the end of this month I'll have roughly a grand saved. I'm paying off all my debts that I incurred while I was out of a job, and slowly pulling my credit out of the current shit hole it is in. with that, I'm going to be buying a new car. not brand new, but newer and nicer, that I'll be able to take road trips with. work is going okay. they piss me off a lot, but I do work with a lot of really awesome people and I guess they're trying to work with me. I've also made the executive decision to save cash to go back to school. I'm not sure if I'm going to do it online or what, I probably am. I'm actually going back to be a medical biller. anyone have any experience with this? I'm pretty lost as to even where to start at this point.
oh I think I also forgot to mention a few months ago we put my dog Rango down. it was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through, and I still sometimes cry and mourn his death. he was the greatest big puppyface in the entire world, and I still love my little(not so little) malamute. he was very old and could no longer stand up or walk, and had serious trouble breathing. a giant hole has been left in my heart over him :/
love life is still at a stand still for the most part. I haven't really dated anyone and I'm okay with that. I'm still considering moving to Australia for someone that I can't seem to get rid of and my heart always yearns for. those that have been on my journal for a long time should know all about Beau. I dated him for over a year long distancely when I was in high school, and after all these years of being split apart we've still kept in contact. maybe he's my soul mate? I don't fucking know. all I know is that I can't picture loving someone as deeply as I loved him, and part of me still does.
I guess that's it for now. I'm sure this thing will be updated in another few months. >.>
oh I think I also forgot to mention a few months ago we put my dog Rango down. it was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through, and I still sometimes cry and mourn his death. he was the greatest big puppyface in the entire world, and I still love my little(not so little) malamute. he was very old and could no longer stand up or walk, and had serious trouble breathing. a giant hole has been left in my heart over him :/
love life is still at a stand still for the most part. I haven't really dated anyone and I'm okay with that. I'm still considering moving to Australia for someone that I can't seem to get rid of and my heart always yearns for. those that have been on my journal for a long time should know all about Beau. I dated him for over a year long distancely when I was in high school, and after all these years of being split apart we've still kept in contact. maybe he's my soul mate? I don't fucking know. all I know is that I can't picture loving someone as deeply as I loved him, and part of me still does.
I guess that's it for now. I'm sure this thing will be updated in another few months. >.>