Another day gone as I slip through your fingers
Well another Saturday night spent aimlessly driving around with lil ole' Sarah has Noland. We talked about a lot of stuff and it was kinda nice to get out some of the things I had building up inside of me. Sometimes its nice to just let go. Parked in the Applebee's parking lot talking to Jared on speaker phone was quite entertaining as well.
So someone called last night and threw me off guard. And I've realized just how manipulative they are and it scares me.
Vulnerable-Open to attack or injury; open to criticism; susceptible to temptation. I feel like this everytime I talk to that person. The way they can say the right thing to make me wanna clear my day and wait for their phone call just so I can hang out with them. I hate that feeling; the feeling that someone else is in control of your life. I told myself a thousand times dont let him do that, dont listen to what he says, but what do I do- listen and clear my day. And what does he do- not call. The whole I'll call you back in like 5 minutes...4 hours later you give up on it. Because of that I didnt even leave Saturday until like 8 30 except earlier when I brought Sarah mouthwash and ate a humphrey. And I hate it but I do it every...single...time. I want to sooo badly be like fuck you but I cant its almost like he has me wrapped around his finger even though he disappeared for about two months. Its like he can come back and have it all over again. One day I'll be able to be like no its not working, one day I'll be stronger, and one day I'll be able to let go.
She's gonna listen to her heart
It's gonna tell her what to do
She might need a lot of lovin'
But she don't need you
So someone called last night and threw me off guard. And I've realized just how manipulative they are and it scares me.
Vulnerable-Open to attack or injury; open to criticism; susceptible to temptation. I feel like this everytime I talk to that person. The way they can say the right thing to make me wanna clear my day and wait for their phone call just so I can hang out with them. I hate that feeling; the feeling that someone else is in control of your life. I told myself a thousand times dont let him do that, dont listen to what he says, but what do I do- listen and clear my day. And what does he do- not call. The whole I'll call you back in like 5 minutes...4 hours later you give up on it. Because of that I didnt even leave Saturday until like 8 30 except earlier when I brought Sarah mouthwash and ate a humphrey. And I hate it but I do it every...single...time. I want to sooo badly be like fuck you but I cant its almost like he has me wrapped around his finger even though he disappeared for about two months. Its like he can come back and have it all over again. One day I'll be able to be like no its not working, one day I'll be stronger, and one day I'll be able to let go.
She's gonna listen to her heart
It's gonna tell her what to do
She might need a lot of lovin'
But she don't need you