fuck
I feel bipolar...one minute Im incredibly happy and the next bam im pissed/sad. I really dont get it.
Last night was pretty fun except for Kyle getting pissed at me once again. Sometimes I wonder if he acctually does like me, like as a friend yanno? Oh well I guess I'll never know.
Damnit Im tired of getting bitched at for not being who everyone wants me to be. Im sorry Im not little miss perfect woohoo awesome person. Im tired of getting shit constantly for mistakes Ive made or mean things I might have said in the past when I was pissed. Im fucking sorry okay? Will that ever be good enough for you. Ill never be the girl you wanted me to be, I guess Im not the girl you thought I was and I guess Im not the girl you want to talk to. But I cant take back what Ive done. How come everyone can fuck up but when I do its unforgiveable? I feel like everyones opinion of me has changed, that Im not the sweet little girl everyone used to like. Have I morphed into some annoying little bitch? Fuck man I wish I could just go back and never do the things I did to you. I sorry I fucked up man, Im fucking sorry, fucking sorry that I messed up once again and ruined everything. Pissed you off so terribly that you dont want anything to do with me. Why does this always happen? Maybe Im just incapable of keeping a friend who we might have had a past together. A little incident of intamacy. Fuck this shit.
...I never got my malt :(
I dont really feel like updating.
Last night was pretty fun except for Kyle getting pissed at me once again. Sometimes I wonder if he acctually does like me, like as a friend yanno? Oh well I guess I'll never know.
Damnit Im tired of getting bitched at for not being who everyone wants me to be. Im sorry Im not little miss perfect woohoo awesome person. Im tired of getting shit constantly for mistakes Ive made or mean things I might have said in the past when I was pissed. Im fucking sorry okay? Will that ever be good enough for you. Ill never be the girl you wanted me to be, I guess Im not the girl you thought I was and I guess Im not the girl you want to talk to. But I cant take back what Ive done. How come everyone can fuck up but when I do its unforgiveable? I feel like everyones opinion of me has changed, that Im not the sweet little girl everyone used to like. Have I morphed into some annoying little bitch? Fuck man I wish I could just go back and never do the things I did to you. I sorry I fucked up man, Im fucking sorry, fucking sorry that I messed up once again and ruined everything. Pissed you off so terribly that you dont want anything to do with me. Why does this always happen? Maybe Im just incapable of keeping a friend who we might have had a past together. A little incident of intamacy. Fuck this shit.
...I never got my malt :(
I dont really feel like updating.