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What has happened so far:
Whatched "Passion love: The forbidden fruit", maybe one of the best porn movies i saw, and yes, i saw it with rachel.
I lost my friggen cell phone, most likely at school where i had it last on friday.
I still kinda miss Chris. But Im gonna try to get over myself.
Sometimes i wish..i could just be independent for a while.... like without any parents, whatever... just being alone... i feel like a prisoner in my own home, thats how sad it is..
font color=blue> Wishing the following things could be terminated forever: misjudgement, misinterpretation of things, jelousy, being afraid, long-term solidarity, and unjustice.
..i dream too much.
ok that'll be it..oh yeah one more thing happened, but im not gonna say it cause its pretty serious...
HELP ME!!!!!!Ok in the past ive done alot of very stupid things, like i ditch roughly 15 classes a month, love fuckjing smokin my ass off, yell at teachers, never go to detention and get suspended, never turn in homework, let alone study for fucking tests. But now things have to change or else i have to sacrifice my future. Just the problem is, i'll lose my personality through doing so. I cant help the fact that i like doing the wrong things. I dont wanna live this average, boring american life. I wanna live an amazing life full of excitement, diveresty, so i can look back and say "whoa, what a life."/i want a life that has the most amazing sexual adventures (I FUCKING SWEAR TO GOD IF ANYONES LAUGHING IM SOO GONNA FUCKING SOCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!) and other realy unforgettable times. BUT NO!! I CANT LIVE THIS LIFE CAUSE OF ME HAVING TO FUCKING GIVE UP ALL MY "badness" and being good, like i was when i was 12!!!GOD FUCK THIS CRAP!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK1!! I HATE HAVING TO LIVE THIS BORING LIFE JUST CAUSE SOCIETY WANTS ME TO!!! I FUCKING HATE THIS!! I CANT BE WHO I FUCKING AM THANKS TO AMERICA!! HA!!! FREEDOM!! BULLSHIT!! I WANNA FUCING MOVE OT GERMANY!!!! ..GOOD I JUST WISH THERE was someone who would understand me.. i doubt there is.....oh well. right after spring break, you wont see me anymore. you wont see the person ive always wanted to be. you will see, good stefanie, trying to do the right thing, so she can get a good job and have an average life. GREAT. fuck. this fucking makes me wanna cry..FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*** Fucking Live freely, think fucking timeless*** spread the word before it will be ended.
Whatched "Passion love: The forbidden fruit", maybe one of the best porn movies i saw, and yes, i saw it with rachel.
I lost my friggen cell phone, most likely at school where i had it last on friday.
I still kinda miss Chris. But Im gonna try to get over myself.
Sometimes i wish..i could just be independent for a while.... like without any parents, whatever... just being alone... i feel like a prisoner in my own home, thats how sad it is..
font color=blue> Wishing the following things could be terminated forever: misjudgement, misinterpretation of things, jelousy, being afraid, long-term solidarity, and unjustice.
..i dream too much.
ok that'll be it..oh yeah one more thing happened, but im not gonna say it cause its pretty serious...
HELP ME!!!!!!Ok in the past ive done alot of very stupid things, like i ditch roughly 15 classes a month, love fuckjing smokin my ass off, yell at teachers, never go to detention and get suspended, never turn in homework, let alone study for fucking tests. But now things have to change or else i have to sacrifice my future. Just the problem is, i'll lose my personality through doing so. I cant help the fact that i like doing the wrong things. I dont wanna live this average, boring american life. I wanna live an amazing life full of excitement, diveresty, so i can look back and say "whoa, what a life."/i want a life that has the most amazing sexual adventures (I FUCKING SWEAR TO GOD IF ANYONES LAUGHING IM SOO GONNA FUCKING SOCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!) and other realy unforgettable times. BUT NO!! I CANT LIVE THIS LIFE CAUSE OF ME HAVING TO FUCKING GIVE UP ALL MY "badness" and being good, like i was when i was 12!!!GOD FUCK THIS CRAP!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK1!! I HATE HAVING TO LIVE THIS BORING LIFE JUST CAUSE SOCIETY WANTS ME TO!!! I FUCKING HATE THIS!! I CANT BE WHO I FUCKING AM THANKS TO AMERICA!! HA!!! FREEDOM!! BULLSHIT!! I WANNA FUCING MOVE OT GERMANY!!!! ..GOOD I JUST WISH THERE was someone who would understand me.. i doubt there is.....oh well. right after spring break, you wont see me anymore. you wont see the person ive always wanted to be. you will see, good stefanie, trying to do the right thing, so she can get a good job and have an average life. GREAT. fuck. this fucking makes me wanna cry..FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*** Fucking Live freely, think fucking timeless*** spread the word before it will be ended.