OITNB FANFIC; CHAOS THEORY CHAPTER 2 (PIPER/ALEX)
Title: Chaos Theory
Fandom: Orange Is the New Black
Pairing: Piper/Alex
Spoilers: 1.13 Can't Fix Crazy
Rating - Heavy M for swearing and later chapters will include sex so the rest of my story has an adult rating. Viewer discretion advised.
Disclaimer: Don't want to go to prison so I disclaim. I don't own this show. Don't own the characters on it.
Summary: Chaos seemed to follow Piper everywhere she went. Like a butterfly flapping its wings Piper couldn't help the hurricane she caused.
Piper wondered if Doggett had been right. Was she unworthy of anyone's love? Was that why she had ended up alone sitting on a cold concrete floor? Piper was back in SHU for who knows how long this time. Everything had happened so quickly. One moment she had been standing outside getting some fresh air and the next she was standing over the prone and bloody body of Doggett.
Everything had gone bad so quickly. Everything seemed to crash down around her all at once. Like a hurricane tearing through her life. It all happened so damn quickly.
Both Larry and Alex were gone now. They had both finally had enough of her shit. Piper wasn't sure if she could blame them. Larry had never been one for the crazy life. He wanted nice and simple and her life was anything but simple. Alex on the other hand wanted something from her that Piper couldn't put her finger on. Something that she wasn't sure she could give. She wasn't sure she was capable of giving.
Or maybe Piper really was just full of it.
Piper stared at her stitched up hands and thought back at the moments that led to the night she had become a monster. The last she had heard Doggett was barely alive and they weren't sure she was going to make it. If she died Piper wasn't sure what they would do with her. She wasn't sure what they would do if Dogett lived. Piper wasn't sure she cared either way.
It didn't matter anymore.
Piper knew she had finally gone too far
Piper had no idea how long they would keep her locked up in SHU. They hadn't told her. Then again they hadn't told her the first time either but she was certain that this time would be more than a couple of days. This time they had a good reason; a real reason.
She had caused her own problems since entering Litchfield. Her mouth had gotten her into more then her fair share of problems but Piper had managed to get out of most of them. She had managed to patch things up with Red and Polly had forgiven her for messing up the meeting with Barney's. Everything was starting to fit into place. She was starting to fit in and even make friends. Then Larry had to start writing articles about her in prison and do that stupid interview and then things started to get out of hand for her again.
Piper stood up when the slot of the door opened and a tray of food came through. She knew she had to eat some of it regardless of how horrible it tasted. It would do no good if she starved to death. Piper sat back down and stared at the food before she took a peice of what looked like cornbread but was actually meat and stuffed it in her mouth and swallowed it without chewing. She continued doing that until all the food was gone trying desperately not to gag or throw up.
She would survive this like she survived everything else. Whatever she thought prison was she had been wrong. This was what prison was. It was waiting. It was staring at nothing. It was feeling useless and helpless and knowing it was all your fault.
Except this time it wasn't all her fault.
It had begun with that stupid WAC election. Piper knew that she shouldn't have won that election. No one voted for her. Hell, she hadn't even voted for herself. She had done as she was told and voted for Morello. Doggett had been right in at least that,. She had every right to see conspiracy. She just saw the wrong conspiracy. It had been Healy at the heart of that one.
He had been at the center of that storm.
Piper and Alex had just been the ones to make it worse. They turned a storm into a hurricane. Playing with the mind of a mentally unstable woman like Doggett had been cruel. Doggett was no innocent but even she didn't deserve what they had done to her.
Piper walked over to the bed that had no mattress, pillow, or sheet and laid down trying to get some sleep. She had no idea what time it was but she suddenly felt tired. She knew that in SHU they never turned out the light. She had no idea if there was an actual reason for it or if they did it just as another form of punishment, another form of cruelty. It didn't matter though. Piper was too tired to care.
She closed her eyes and dreamed of Alex.
They had been together for only a short time when they had their first fight. It had been a horrible fight with yelling and screaming. They had said some terrible things to each other. Piper had left the flat in Paris they had been living in at the time and had gone to the nearest pub to get drunk. She had accused Alex of cheating on her. She knew that Alex slept with some of her mules and had been fine with that. It was part of the business. What had pissed her off was that she had taken one of the girls to dinner and had wined and dined her. That was girlfriend behavior.
Fucking was ok.
Dating was not.
But it worked both ways, Piper was allowed to fuck anyone she wanted as long as she was careful and didn't bring anyone home with her.Piper spent the next five hours in the club dancing with each and every man and woman there. She knew she could go home with any one of them. She knew it would make her feel better in the short run but in the long run it would only make her feel worse.
All she wanted was Alex.
And that really pissed her off.
Finally Piper staggered her way back into the flat barely standing she was so drunk. Alex was pacing in the hallway talking to someone on the phone when she noticed Piper walk in.
"Where have you been?" Alex asked angrily. "I've been worried."
"Out." Piper said trying to remain standing.
"You're drunk." Alex said simply.
"I think we'll be going now."
That was when Piper noticed that there were more than a few people in the flat. Alex had pulled out all the stops. There were at least a dozen people in the flat. Several Piper recognized as Alex's drug connections. Alex must have been really worried about her if she called these people. Neither Piper or Alex said anything until everyone had left the flat. Even then they both remained quiet. Piper just stared at Alex still angry at her and yet wanting nothing more than to be in her arms.
"Did you fuck anyone tonight?" Alex asked finally.
Piper felt the anger well up inside of her. She wanted to attack. She wanted to make Alex hurt like she was still hurting but then she looked in to Alex's eyes and saw that she was.
"No."
"Because I would understand if you did."
Piper pushed Alex against the wall and reveled in the lustful look she saw on Alex's face, "I want to fuck you tonight."
Piper woke with a start when she heard a banging on the door as the slot opened for another meal. Was it breakfast? Had she managed to sleep for that long of a time? Piper stood up and walked to the door and took the tray again. The food once again looked horrible but again there was no point in starving.
Piper sat down on her bed with her breakfast and sighed. After that night in Alex's flat the rules had changed between them slightly. Alex still had sex with her mules but began introducing Piper around as her girlfriend. Everyone knew that she was taken. Everyone started treating Piper like any other wife of someone in Alex's position.
That had been ten years ago. It had taken ten years for her to go from the girlfriend of a drug importer to the fiancee of an unemployed journalist and now she was a convicted felon doing time for a drug offense and now a violent one as well. This was what her life had finally come down to.
All the choices in her life had come down to this.
And Piper had the distinct impression she had only reached the eye of the storm.