Fic: Save Me
Title: Save Me
Pairing: Kathy/Olivia
Author: Mirandyscrow
Rating: Pg-13
Summary: Kathy muses about her matters of the heart and life while she’s in the hospital after the car accident in Paternity.
Archive: Sure if you really want it. Lol, it would be a surprise to me, just ask my permission first. (It’s nice when people ask)
Disclaimer: Law and Order: SVU belongs to Dick Wolf and NBC. Any and all other brand names belong to their respective owners. I do not make any money on this story. Please don’t sue; you only stand to gain outstanding student loans.
Author’s Note: So apparently when I watch television to escape my small writer’s block I see femslash in everything, lol. I just couldn't shake how resistent Kathy was when Elliot asked her did she date people when they were seperated and how fast she answered. You add in my overactive imagination and you get this.
Big thanks to Skeeter451 for beta-ing this fic for me! All simple mistakes are my own.
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“I had a couple of dates. Nobody you know.”
I cringe now when I think of the lie I told Elliot. How do you tell your ex-husband, soon to be husband again that the only other person that you dated while you were separated was his partner of eleven years? His very female partner. I laugh now when I look back on all the times I accused her of trying to put a wedge between me and Elliot. Perhaps, all this time I was projecting the fact that I wanted Olivia for myself. I struggle to remember how a simple, friendly dinner became a date in a couple of hours, but after that for a little over a month we were addicted to each other and I never wanted it to end.
But end it did.
It still stings when I recall how it ended. We’d already made love and were relaxing on her couch after a lovely shower together. Olivia gently held my face and kissed me. When she pulled back I saw the tears that sprang up in the coffee colored eyes I had grown to love and she told me it was over. She let me know in no uncertain terms that she would not to be the catalyst for another separation between Elliot and me. It just escalated from there, the end result being that I slapped her, called her a coward, and stormed out of her apartment as fast as I could. I was hurt, lonely and that…that just filled me with thoughts that maybe she was just afraid to take a chance on me: this straight-laced, Catholic, part-time nurse and full-time mother. It made me feel worthless. Like I wasn’t someone worth waiting for. It took me a little while to get over my feelings of betrayal and resentment. I decided that I wanted to try again with Olivia.
I was going to confront her when it happened.
Elliot came home and we conceived Eli. It was then I realized that Olivia saw what was happening long before I did. She saw Elliot picking up his life. She saw a man hanging by a thread, needing his family more than he could ever know.
Before my eyes slipped closed, I watched as Elliot pulled a very exhausted and surprised Olivia into a crushing hug. It was a hug of love, relief, and immense gratitude. Her eyes caught mine through the window over his shoulder. The message was clear between us. Those couple of weeks of happiness would stay buried.
“It’s for the best.” I muttered, finally succumbing to a dreamless sleep that only pure exhaustion from giving birth after a car wreck and strong hospital meds could provide.
~Fin~
Pairing: Kathy/Olivia
Author: Mirandyscrow
Rating: Pg-13
Summary: Kathy muses about her matters of the heart and life while she’s in the hospital after the car accident in Paternity.
Archive: Sure if you really want it. Lol, it would be a surprise to me, just ask my permission first. (It’s nice when people ask)
Disclaimer: Law and Order: SVU belongs to Dick Wolf and NBC. Any and all other brand names belong to their respective owners. I do not make any money on this story. Please don’t sue; you only stand to gain outstanding student loans.
Author’s Note: So apparently when I watch television to escape my small writer’s block I see femslash in everything, lol. I just couldn't shake how resistent Kathy was when Elliot asked her did she date people when they were seperated and how fast she answered. You add in my overactive imagination and you get this.
Big thanks to Skeeter451 for beta-ing this fic for me! All simple mistakes are my own.
-x-
“I had a couple of dates. Nobody you know.”
I cringe now when I think of the lie I told Elliot. How do you tell your ex-husband, soon to be husband again that the only other person that you dated while you were separated was his partner of eleven years? His very female partner. I laugh now when I look back on all the times I accused her of trying to put a wedge between me and Elliot. Perhaps, all this time I was projecting the fact that I wanted Olivia for myself. I struggle to remember how a simple, friendly dinner became a date in a couple of hours, but after that for a little over a month we were addicted to each other and I never wanted it to end.
But end it did.
It still stings when I recall how it ended. We’d already made love and were relaxing on her couch after a lovely shower together. Olivia gently held my face and kissed me. When she pulled back I saw the tears that sprang up in the coffee colored eyes I had grown to love and she told me it was over. She let me know in no uncertain terms that she would not to be the catalyst for another separation between Elliot and me. It just escalated from there, the end result being that I slapped her, called her a coward, and stormed out of her apartment as fast as I could. I was hurt, lonely and that…that just filled me with thoughts that maybe she was just afraid to take a chance on me: this straight-laced, Catholic, part-time nurse and full-time mother. It made me feel worthless. Like I wasn’t someone worth waiting for. It took me a little while to get over my feelings of betrayal and resentment. I decided that I wanted to try again with Olivia.
I was going to confront her when it happened.
Elliot came home and we conceived Eli. It was then I realized that Olivia saw what was happening long before I did. She saw Elliot picking up his life. She saw a man hanging by a thread, needing his family more than he could ever know.
Before my eyes slipped closed, I watched as Elliot pulled a very exhausted and surprised Olivia into a crushing hug. It was a hug of love, relief, and immense gratitude. Her eyes caught mine through the window over his shoulder. The message was clear between us. Those couple of weeks of happiness would stay buried.
“It’s for the best.” I muttered, finally succumbing to a dreamless sleep that only pure exhaustion from giving birth after a car wreck and strong hospital meds could provide.
~Fin~