change and an aroma of burnt popcorn
Anyways, so lately , well since my break I think these 3 days have been so empty and boring I've had to much time to think. I've been thinking the most about change. Mainly how I've changed and how I want to change. I find that every time I feel this way I end up cutting my own hair. Which of course I have done over the past day and a half. My bangs are a lot shorter again. Seems every time I want change since I cut my hair I always end up giving my self some bangs. I wonder why?
But moving on, this whole change thing. If I could compare myself from the beginning of the school year till now, I think I maybe 2 totally different people. At the beg. of the year I was a complete mess and every week or even everyday i just kept digging myself deeper and deeper into a whole of empty nothingness that was destroying me. It finally got to a point where I had to change my ways, so I did just that. Im so happy I did. I mean there is still days where Im not fully content with myself, but I don't take out on myself the way I used to. But Im a teenager its normal for all of this. Well maybe not all of this. Not only from the beg. of highschool have things changed, but since the beg. of this year. I mean my mom got divorced, we moved 2x, I've surrounded myself with different people, my school habits have changed, even some of my outlooks on things. None of these changes are good or bad, they're neutral.
So what exactly do I want to make my point Im not sure anymore. I thought I would be getting more out of what I've been writing than what I've gotten out of it so far. I don't want to be someone I'm not, I just want to be different than who I am right now.
-its to bad its not my style, if you need me....
But moving on, this whole change thing. If I could compare myself from the beginning of the school year till now, I think I maybe 2 totally different people. At the beg. of the year I was a complete mess and every week or even everyday i just kept digging myself deeper and deeper into a whole of empty nothingness that was destroying me. It finally got to a point where I had to change my ways, so I did just that. Im so happy I did. I mean there is still days where Im not fully content with myself, but I don't take out on myself the way I used to. But Im a teenager its normal for all of this. Well maybe not all of this. Not only from the beg. of highschool have things changed, but since the beg. of this year. I mean my mom got divorced, we moved 2x, I've surrounded myself with different people, my school habits have changed, even some of my outlooks on things. None of these changes are good or bad, they're neutral.
So what exactly do I want to make my point Im not sure anymore. I thought I would be getting more out of what I've been writing than what I've gotten out of it so far. I don't want to be someone I'm not, I just want to be different than who I am right now.
-its to bad its not my style, if you need me....