Free Association
I want to record my thoughts. That's what blogs/journals/diaries/whatevers are for. For some reason, I'm finding this hard to do though. I find that I'm trying to find super cool deep thoughts to record so that when people read it, they'll think, "Wow, that's so interesting, he's so interesting, he's so cool and mysterious and intelligent, he's pretty much dreamy." I realize that by typing this words I'm assuming no males are reading this. In reality, there's probably only one person reading this. So, in reality, maybe I'm trying to get you to say that by recording super cool, deep thoughts. I don't really know though. Either way, trying to elicit those thoughts isn't real. These things are to record my thoughts; it's to record my whole thought process. When I try to force myself to think up something cool, I'm leaving out the whole process of getting there which is not what I want this to be. I want this to basically be free association. That probably means that often times what I write won't make sense.
Oh well. I lost my train of thought. I'm at work and I actually had to do something. New train of thought then. I had a big conversation yesterday and, surprisingly, it actually went rather well. Obviously it was tough to do, but she handled it much better than I thought she would and she is being very mature about everything. I'm happy for that. I keep getting affirmation from different directions that this was the right thing to do. She hasn't gotten that affirmation at all (which is natural, I think), but after our talk, she seemed to get everything she needed out of the conversation. They had bible study tonight. I kind of miss it. A lot of them will be gone at the end of the semester or sooner. Just like last year's bible study group kind of broke up at the end of the semester. Dani, Christina, Travis, and Kristen all are pretty much gone. This year Megann, Tex, and Scotty will be gone, I think and Gary and Bryna are getting married. It'll be weird. I'm finally getting this good group of guys around me that are all really after the same thing I'm after and it will be broken up almost as soon as it starts. That makes me weemo. I kind of wonder how things will be then.
I'm going to have to buy new tires for a minimum of $450 I think, and I'm sure it will be more than that when all is said and done. Sad times for the wallet. I really want to go to a lot of places. I want to go to the San Diego Zoo and that Wildlife Park. I want to get a Disneyland pass because surprisingly, I miss it. Even though it will be weird as crap not going with Jess. I want to go to Universal Studios (and not by myself). I want to do camping things, hiking things, etc. I just bought a USA world baseball classic hat (I probably look hot in it). I just bought two boxes of peanut butter patties girl scout cookies (half a box is already gone [I bought them like 2 hours ago]). I want movies, I want music, I want to buy presents for people. Oh well. It will have to hold off for a little bit.
Enough free association for now. Back to work. Maybe I'll return in a little bit.
Oh well. I lost my train of thought. I'm at work and I actually had to do something. New train of thought then. I had a big conversation yesterday and, surprisingly, it actually went rather well. Obviously it was tough to do, but she handled it much better than I thought she would and she is being very mature about everything. I'm happy for that. I keep getting affirmation from different directions that this was the right thing to do. She hasn't gotten that affirmation at all (which is natural, I think), but after our talk, she seemed to get everything she needed out of the conversation. They had bible study tonight. I kind of miss it. A lot of them will be gone at the end of the semester or sooner. Just like last year's bible study group kind of broke up at the end of the semester. Dani, Christina, Travis, and Kristen all are pretty much gone. This year Megann, Tex, and Scotty will be gone, I think and Gary and Bryna are getting married. It'll be weird. I'm finally getting this good group of guys around me that are all really after the same thing I'm after and it will be broken up almost as soon as it starts. That makes me weemo. I kind of wonder how things will be then.
I'm going to have to buy new tires for a minimum of $450 I think, and I'm sure it will be more than that when all is said and done. Sad times for the wallet. I really want to go to a lot of places. I want to go to the San Diego Zoo and that Wildlife Park. I want to get a Disneyland pass because surprisingly, I miss it. Even though it will be weird as crap not going with Jess. I want to go to Universal Studios (and not by myself). I want to do camping things, hiking things, etc. I just bought a USA world baseball classic hat (I probably look hot in it). I just bought two boxes of peanut butter patties girl scout cookies (half a box is already gone [I bought them like 2 hours ago]). I want movies, I want music, I want to buy presents for people. Oh well. It will have to hold off for a little bit.
Enough free association for now. Back to work. Maybe I'll return in a little bit.